Rant On Anxiety

[Deleted member 12723]

I am feeling anxiety today. I am feeling alot of it. I am trying to let it flow. I took my meds for it. I felt so good yesterday. I know it has to do with the emdr. I had it yesterday. It does stuff to me. I had such a good day yesterday,

I have been having peaceful mornings.I do my chores later on. I so want to feel better. I will wait for the meds to kick in and I will write more. I really want to get a handle on this.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I a, starting to feel alittle better now. I do not know why I woke up with so much of it this morning. My mind is racing and my heart is beating fast. i am waiting to calm down. It will pass. I hate and loathe anxiety. It serves no useful purpose. I will have a good day today. I will have a good day today.:confused:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Well so far I have realized that I woke up to racing thoughts. These are tricky because they are so fast it is hard to pinpoint them down. I took some more anxiety meds and that has calmned down alot. I am down today and I think it is because I had such a great day yesterday, and I am not having the same feelings today. I keep sucking on sweets.

I have to do some things today so I hope by getting out of here, it will lift my spirits. But I am getting a handle on it. It is passing away. Today is the kind of day that I would just love to stay home and veg. I can do that tommorow. I have something to look forward to. I will keep checking in so I can get to the root of this.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I finally realized that I am having the afteraffects of emdr, kinda like a emdr hangover. This makes sense. I am doing so much better on the anxiety now. I rearranged my day so I could take a break. I need to take a nap. I am watching the Terminal by Tom Hanks now. It is a peaceful and quiet day and I am enjoying it now.

 

[p-no]

Hey Gizmo,

Just wanted to say that I'm thinking of you and have been reading along. Enjoy the movie and just be-ing.

A former therapist said to me once: It doesn't matter what it is as long as it helps and it doesn't hurt you or others. I find you're doing great in finding ways for you!

p-no

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thank you p-no. I appreciated what you had to say. I have been relaxing today. I had to run some errands this morning but after that I have just been chilling. I do not have any anxiety now. It has taken all day.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am ok today. I do not feel the anxiety. I am having a good morning. I have to go food shopping today. We will get that out of the way, and get gas for the car and I will come back and relax after I put the groceries away. But I am feeling alot better than I did yesterday. I am relieved.

 

[blackemerald1]

Hi Gizmo, wow you do more in one day than I manage in a week. I am trying to battle so many things right now.....its impossible for me to describe whether I am depressed or crippled with anxiety. I am trying to find the light, I went to a psychologist last Friday and spilled out my whole story, it took 3 hours. I see her again this week. Then the plan is to find a way to start my life again. Anyway, have a good rest Gizmo, you post such sensible advice and are so compassionate even when suffering yourself.
Go well
Blackemerald1

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Ok now I know my anxiety is due to a real life situation and not ptsd. So I have to think about this long and hard. I will have to develop coping skills and stretch out of my comfort zone and not rely on anxiety meds. I will have to learn how to develop muscles in this area of my life. I still get the anxiety, but I am taking steps to deal with it. I will soon be going back into therapy for a tune up and work on the caregiving issues.

I will keep this up and record my progress. If I can overcome a driving phobia, I can get a handle on this.