Hi everyone. I'm Light.
I'm from England, but currently trying to start a new life in Belgium with my fiancé.
I feel like I lost my baby, my baby would be 4 months old by now, I can't bear with the painful decision I had to make to lose my son or daughter.
I feel abused; dirty and useless from being hurt and cheated on so much in the past and raped twice; once by an angry and drunk ex-boyfriend and second from my blood-related cousin who was drug addicted.
I felt alone, my family never wanted much to do with me; but now I'm starting a new life with a man who loves me and cares very much about me. Still needing professional help and to help others, as I know how much it hurts to suffer from PTSD.
I suffer from PTSD and have for quite a long time without realising and trying to move on every day, but now I realise I need serious help.
I hope that I can find a friend or friends to talk to as I'm too scared to approach people who might not understand how it is to hurt so much every day and live with the pain of memories.
It's a relief to know this forum exists and there are people out there; I'm certainly not alone and you are not alone.
I was losing hope, but I will find the Light.
Many thanks for being here.
I'm from England, but currently trying to start a new life in Belgium with my fiancé.
I feel like I lost my baby, my baby would be 4 months old by now, I can't bear with the painful decision I had to make to lose my son or daughter.
I feel abused; dirty and useless from being hurt and cheated on so much in the past and raped twice; once by an angry and drunk ex-boyfriend and second from my blood-related cousin who was drug addicted.
I felt alone, my family never wanted much to do with me; but now I'm starting a new life with a man who loves me and cares very much about me. Still needing professional help and to help others, as I know how much it hurts to suffer from PTSD.
I suffer from PTSD and have for quite a long time without realising and trying to move on every day, but now I realise I need serious help.
I hope that I can find a friend or friends to talk to as I'm too scared to approach people who might not understand how it is to hurt so much every day and live with the pain of memories.
It's a relief to know this forum exists and there are people out there; I'm certainly not alone and you are not alone.
I was losing hope, but I will find the Light.
Many thanks for being here.
