Hi, I am Tom and my last visit to my Therapist last Thursday, I found out my diagnosis was Dissociative Disorder - not otherwise specified. (DD-NOS)
Well I don't know what to think about this, its hard to swallow...I know I am dissociative to an extent, but didn't realize it was a even a diagnosis, I have heard of DID and have been hospitalized numerous times and seen a lot of different mental illnesses and had a friend years ago that was diagnosed that and she committed suicide 4 years ago. I have been through a lot of deaths since 2007 and lost my adopted parents in a car accident when I was 7 y/o and I was in the back seat. my therapist believes that this is where my trauma first started, at that young age I didn't have anyone to help me understand that my parents were dead and I had to basically "raise" myself...
I have had multiple traumas throughout the years and most recently the one I think that has got me to where I am now (depressed, anxious, memory loss and dissociating) is the passing of my roommate. and well I am now 48 y/o as of a few mins ago. anyways I don't know much of what else to say atm. except that I have been seeing my Therapist for bout 2-3 months now and she is probably the best in my area as far as using CBT and EMDR. she is the only one in my area that is Certified in EMDR.
Anyways, for years I thought I was just depressed, since I was 18y/o ( 30 years now) WOW!!!
I have been going to Psychiatrists and Psychologists, and ....well I never had a therapist actually work with me and try to get to the actual roots of my issues, til I started seeing thie one I currently have.
...to think I was only depressed and had an extremely bad memory...and a lot of anxiety...well enough to put me on disability RSDI a second time...Here I am now with a new diagnosis and its confusing but I think i get it... but still it seems alot more serious than depression. IDK
Well I think i am rambling and editing this too much so I think I am re-typing a lot of what I put in my "about me" of my profile. Thanks for reading...
Peace, Blue1964
Well I don't know what to think about this, its hard to swallow...I know I am dissociative to an extent, but didn't realize it was a even a diagnosis, I have heard of DID and have been hospitalized numerous times and seen a lot of different mental illnesses and had a friend years ago that was diagnosed that and she committed suicide 4 years ago. I have been through a lot of deaths since 2007 and lost my adopted parents in a car accident when I was 7 y/o and I was in the back seat. my therapist believes that this is where my trauma first started, at that young age I didn't have anyone to help me understand that my parents were dead and I had to basically "raise" myself...
I have had multiple traumas throughout the years and most recently the one I think that has got me to where I am now (depressed, anxious, memory loss and dissociating) is the passing of my roommate. and well I am now 48 y/o as of a few mins ago. anyways I don't know much of what else to say atm. except that I have been seeing my Therapist for bout 2-3 months now and she is probably the best in my area as far as using CBT and EMDR. she is the only one in my area that is Certified in EMDR.
Anyways, for years I thought I was just depressed, since I was 18y/o ( 30 years now) WOW!!!
I have been going to Psychiatrists and Psychologists, and ....well I never had a therapist actually work with me and try to get to the actual roots of my issues, til I started seeing thie one I currently have.
...to think I was only depressed and had an extremely bad memory...and a lot of anxiety...well enough to put me on disability RSDI a second time...Here I am now with a new diagnosis and its confusing but I think i get it... but still it seems alot more serious than depression. IDK
Well I think i am rambling and editing this too much so I think I am re-typing a lot of what I put in my "about me" of my profile. Thanks for reading...
Peace, Blue1964
