Recognising The Small Positives

[Namaste]

I know it's nothing major, but during my t. session today, she said something to me and it made me stop and think. Basically, she summed it up with all the traumas I have dealt with my entire life and the somewhat recent (5 years ago today, actually) traumatic death of my dad, that I was a strong and powerful woman and she was amazed by me. She was struck by all I've been through, and that I never reverted to a path of hard drugs, drinking, etc, that a lot of people who have trauma cling to.

I never really thought of it that way.

I sat and let it sink in for a minute. I was in a very vulnerable state, cut wide open after a really deep session. I was feeling weak, unsure, broken down.. and then those words hit me. She was proud of me, and I came to the realization that I was proud of myself, too.

I know not everyone goes this route to deal with pain, but a lot of people do, and I never gave myself credit for going through what I've been through and what I'm currently dealing with, and steering clear of even more self destruction.

So I guess I'm proud of myself after all, even if it's a small accomplishment in the grand scheme of things. I just wanted to share that with you all today, and let you guys know that no matter how small the accomplishment, it's the fact you've done it that matters. Take pride in yourself today -- you're all beautiful, lovely people who deserve to proud and aware of your amazingness today and every day :)

 

[maddog]

This is a beautiful, wonderful and special realisation Namest, the furtherest thing from a *small* accomplishment. This is an enormous moment of truth and significance, and you have every right to feel pride and self acceptance in whatever way you can, for as long as you can.

Thank you so much for sharing this moment. It really touched me, reminded me of the difficult yet critical battle we must each face to accept and to be proud of ourselves. Surviving trauma doesn't stop when the trauma does, in some ways the journey to survival begins all anew then, and you have obviously come a long, proud way along your own journey.

Thank you, and congratulations. You deserve to savour your moment.

Maddog

 

[Namaste]

Thanks, Maddog! I really appreciate the thanks and encouragement. I know when having a string of bad days, that this slice of today really counts for a lot. I hope many others were able to have something positive to happen today, we all deserve it.

 

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[anthony]

I know it's nothing major, but during my t. session today, she said something to me and it made me stop and think. Basically, she summed it up with all the traumas I have dealt with my entire life and the somewhat recent (5 years ago today, actually) traumatic death of my dad, that I was a strong and powerful woman and she was amazed by me. She was struck by all I've been through, and that I never reverted to a path of hard drugs, drinking, etc, that a lot of people who have trauma cling to.

Well done... that is the beauty of more heads into the equation when dealing with trauma, as you get more perspectives and objective angles to review, thus making you look at your own situation differently, hence you change and action typically positively / acknowledge your own self work. Well done.

 

[Eleanor]

We made it through week 2 (first full five days) of Kindergarten. I didn't even cry today.:rolleyes:

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I am having a crappy day. This too shall pass. I am counting on it.

 

[Eleanor]

Gizmo, we have too many rays of sunshine here today. I'm sending some to you.:)

Hope your day gets better from here.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Thanks Eleanor. I appreciated that, I am beginning to feel better. Hugs.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

There is always one truth to hang onto. One truth that can make a difference in my life. One trutb that can change my life for the better.

 

[surviving_it_all]

Today, I have had an amazing day. It is wonderful to remember what it is like to live without fear, dissociation, and flashbacks. Earlier this year, I was on so much medication yet the PTSD was ridiculous. Although I am still taking medication and am in long term therapy, today I had a bit of a break through. I had an entire morning without PTSD symptoms. Today, I feel so calm and so myself. It feels wonderful. I dont get this often so I see the light at the end of the tunnel. There is hope if I can overcome this. I know the trauma was not my fault. It damaged me badly but I can one day live a life that is not crippled by fear.

 

[Tinyflame]

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