Hello Terry, so sorry about what happened to your mom and everything that you've been through because of it :hug:
I hope what I write now is acceptable to the administration because I am going to write about spirituality and not psychology.
When my mom died from lung cancer in 2011,I was devastated and I went on a 6-8 week drinking binge.
I'm only 4"11 and I was downing 2-3 litrs of vodka and 2 bottles of white wine a week and not eating anything at all.
My mom appeared in my dreams and she said "Pixie, please stop drinking, you're killing yourself. I will not and cannot come back alive no matter how much you drink. I love you and I want you to know that I'm happy now, where I am. I am free from pain and anguish and I want you to continue living, you have much to do before you die"
I woke up the next morning and my desire to kill myself, to join my mom in the afterlife was gone.
I believe in the afterlife, I believe that we as humans live on after death. I believe that death is just another journey we continue, into.
I also have reason to believe that your dream, is your mom telling you that it's time to believe that she has found peace and is happy.
And that she wants you to be happy too. To live.