Recurring Thoughts

[Shaan]

@jmni I can't avoid them because they are my childhood friends. It's just that there was nothing so serious to share before. In fact this was not a serious issue and in fact not even now but the way I narrated it in the high panic state gave a really wrong impression to anyone hearing it. Some of my friends understood and told me don't put it in a way that people think wrong but some took it wrong and I can't accept it.

Today I met that friend and I kept thinking she will bring it up but we were in a big group so maybe that's why she did not. Another friend knew something else and she had asked me if she could share it with some friend I barely know (this is the one I am scared of by the way.I just said NO. But when I met that friend of hers today also I just kept thinking if she did tell her about it. I just realised she seems to like sharing others problems with her friends. I don't mind if she wants to do it by not naming me but she names me and I don't want people narrating my secrets to others) I think I would call her and clear it. I don't know if it will help. I can't take it anymore.

 

[Shaan]

@jmni After reading the idea of thought negation multiple times I finally made sense of what you are trying to say. It's equivalent to me thinking if I share my problems with others I may feel better when it actually does the opposite. I have been thinking of worst case scenario but I still don't wish it to happen.