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Call it a good run or bumpy one. I am burned out and tired. I cannot give back on the forum on the emotional level anymore or take anything from it, haven't for a long while except in private. We make policies to make things easier but they seem to make it more complicated in the end as I do not know anymore when to enforce them or let it slide as they don't always apply in a straight forward fashion. Not knocking anyone it just confuses me and I gave it my all. That is part of the problem. When I have time to spend here it has nothing to do with healing or continuing my progress. It is all about delete/undelete, approve, spam, porn, spats, and etc. Then I am too pooped to work on me or help.
Also, it seems I am taken way too personal on the forum as a whole when I do give my two cents since I am an editor. I would much rather people know I am just annoying them than think I am on some sort of witch hunt for pointing out policy or giving my opinion. I don't want to have to point out what the forum policies are when someone does not follow it. I would rather just participate in a thread so they know I am simply speaking from my heart on a topic.
I just want to help those who are where I am and have been and congratulate those who pass me up. Just like before as back then I was moving forward and I have spent my time spinning my wheels for a while. I just cannot do both.
Maybe when I am a bit better off I can try again but right now and not for a while can I do this. This forum is special to me and I want to keep it that way before I lose it.
:occasion: BTW This is a celebration! So no pouty posts!
Also, it seems I am taken way too personal on the forum as a whole when I do give my two cents since I am an editor. I would much rather people know I am just annoying them than think I am on some sort of witch hunt for pointing out policy or giving my opinion. I don't want to have to point out what the forum policies are when someone does not follow it. I would rather just participate in a thread so they know I am simply speaking from my heart on a topic.
I just want to help those who are where I am and have been and congratulate those who pass me up. Just like before as back then I was moving forward and I have spent my time spinning my wheels for a while. I just cannot do both.
Maybe when I am a bit better off I can try again but right now and not for a while can I do this. This forum is special to me and I want to keep it that way before I lose it.
:occasion: BTW This is a celebration! So no pouty posts!