Returning To Veteran Only Community

[gibrokedown]

Elise, you have to understand the veterans we get on here. Nearly all of them have PTSD that's factual, however, over the time I have been here, there have been all types of whacko's. We have had people that believe that the government is watching their every move, even having their own MD's brainwashed etc, etc.
We have other soldiers who's psychosis is so bad that they have disrupted the whole forum.
Its not a matter of me believing Anthony over you, I just need to see the written evidence. For example, I posted this.



And Anthony replied with this.



Anthony created this site to help veterans and has been doing so for longer than I have been on here. He does not hate you, he just needs official documents to back it up.

So, if you can find some documents which quote PTSD as being parasite like then he will support you.
And if they have been studying your brain for twenty years then there should be some.

STOP WITH THE DAMN PARASITE I NEVER SAID IT WAS A PARASITE I WAS SAYING IT ACTED AS SUCH LIKE ONE BECAUSE SOMEONE CALLED IT THAT. I NEVER CALLED IT THAT MYSELF. ALL I STATED IS IT DESTROYED THE LIVING TISSUE THAT IS STILL THERE. NO ONE KNOWS HOW FAST OR HOW SLOW. THEY ARE ALL IN STUDY RIGHT NOW.

 

[Jimmy1]

well, jimmy they have studied me for years and come to the conclusion that yes there is a direct connection between TBI and PTSD. not one that anyone would think. one doesn't cause the other or anything like that. what happens is the PTSD becomes a parasite and begins to kill brain tissue in the area that was damaged. Every year i see more gone, due to this. One day I won't have a temporal lobe. meaning i will have zero personality, zero personality control, zero emotion. ......balance...etc.. will all be affected including memory. I hope i die before this point comes honestly. it doesn't seem like a life i wish to lead.

Here it is in your own words. So stop denying it. Anthony responded to this post. You are the one making a mountain out of a molehill. We base our comments mostly on written fact. How dare you try and throw it in my face. I understand your a single parent and doing it tough, but we all are. No one is any more special than the other.

You are not the enemy, I never said that. I just question your comments about things like parasites and other shit. Some I agree with, others I don't.

Go take a chill pill.

 

[Jimmy1]

don't worry i will not longer talk to you or to anthony. if anthony doesn't want me here, fine. i shall leave even though I've done absolutely nothing wrong. just because you guys have thin skin and don't believe the facts I've shared and want to start a fight which is actually very childish. especially with someone who has brain damage, and ptsd combined yah that's a fair fight. two fairly healthy men against one damaged brained female who can hardly deal with the daily items needed to survive. I don't give a shit now if you believe me or not. I know what i read, i know what i've discussed with professionals, i know what I've studied. i may be losing my memory but two things i try to retain, anything that can help me, and anything about my daughter. the rest is just slush to me. i thought you guys were a welcoming group. i was wrong. you attack a depressed soldier. smart, and vicious too. if anthony has psych training as he says he would know that would send a ptsd vet over the edge. our lonliness is bad enough. the pain is bad enough, but all you two focus on with me is how i tried to help. apparently it wasn't good enough for you. so do whatever you want. kick me out, don't talk with me I don't give a shit anymore. I don't give a shit about anything anymore. I haven't for awhile now. you are just the tip of the iceberg that sunk the titanic. have a great life hurting people jimmy.

Stop making it personal. You have NO idea who any of us are, so that is a fare comment. We call it as we see it.
How dare you.

 

[anthony]

Jimmy... you can't be right, so give up trying IMHO.

 

[Wagon]

I would just like to go on record that I very much disagree with the military and VA being claimed as a reliable source. Nothing further. Yes I am late. Sorry. The internet is not available to the homeless.

 

[Koala]

Yeah I have been away for a long time....

Wagon what the hell, homeless. What you need to do is.

1. Get a leaky ass boat with a sail.
2. Carbo load on bake beans and point your ass to the sail.
3. Even if you get halfway to Aus the Navy will pick you up, get refugee status
4. Play ping pong, snooker, get all your meals cooked and an education whilst they work out if you are eligible for refugee status.
5. By the time they work out you are from the US you will be an Aus citizen.
6. Join our Army, get through boot camp, a walk in the park now.
7. Then claim PTSD here in Aus (putting this in to cover my ass so it does not get out of context as you have PTSD, I am just saying you would have to get it recognized here in Aus under your new name, your refugee alias).
8. From there you have free meds, and counselling up the wazoo.

Okay a couple of lessons, the written word does not carry emotions very well unless you have done a degree in literature or are just naturally talented (I am neither). So whilst I can type the above to Wagon with a tongue in cheek look on my face some people will take it literally (he he, did you see the play on words right there >literally<) and therefore take offence.

One of the first things I learnt from watching the vids / media that Anthony put on the site was not to help others until you are cured or a least stable. It is way too easy to take things completely our of context... an example of this happen to me.

me... yeah when I am bad as in really bad it is like I am paralyzed from the neck down. I huddle on the couch and struggle to physically move...
Jimmy.... that's shit, never had that or heard of that....
me.... (in my head... not on the forum... is Jimmy calling me a liar, I know what happens to me, who the f*ck does he think he is.... f*cking r'tard (yeah okay did not really call you an r'tard but hey is gives the story more credit don't you think Jimmy)... I am going away from the forum for a while...I am not stable enough)

me... still away from the forum, four months later.... still not stable enough.... taking things too personally.

me... Hey I am on new meds, been on PTSD lifestyle camps, counsling every week and sometimes twice a week, just starting CPT or is it CBT <ouch> (that was Anthony give me a kick in the ass)... I am well on my road to being stable, I still wake up in cold sweats, cannot go to shopping centres or down the street without somebody holding my hand... but now I can read Jimmys comments a couple of different ways...

Before reading the below lines please if you like visualise Jimmy drugged up on pethidine (pain relive of epic proportions).

"Shit dude, that is mad as."
"Holy crap dude, like that must suck ass."
"That is some foreskin ripping shit right there man."

Anthony and Jimmy have been rockstars, most people on here have been rockstars. I am sad to see some of the supports go but can see why...

wife "why"
me "well you know how you tell me to have a can of harden the f*ck up"
wife "yeah"
me "if you did that to someone on the forum that was in bad way...."
wife "yep, can see why now..."
The above converstation did just happen.

But being an aussie I can put 10% bullshit on the story... below.
wife "why"
me "well you know how you tell me to squeeze my left nut until the symptoms reduce"
wife "yeah"
me "well if you did that to someone who lost their left nut...."
wife "yep, can see why now..."

Phew, man was that an effort... drinking coffee left handed, trying to type and squeezing the left nut.....
wait.... f*ck......

just fell of my chair....

 

[Jimmy1]

Welcome back Koala, it took you a while to get off that couch.

I am glad you are on a new medication, and I want the name of it. lol.

I am back in for more surgery tomorrow. They f*cked up with the back surgery and they have to fix my abdominal wall. Am so over surgery. But luckily I have a couple of can of 'harden the f*ck up' left in my foot locker downstairs.

 

[Wagon]

Hey Koala. Good to see you back...... Well, you know what I mean. Thanks for the advice. Wish I would have thought of that a month ago. I am officially homefull or whatever the opposite of homeless is. Got me a little cell with a hot 20 something Polish chic room mate.

If there is a hell, one foot is already burnt to a crisp from the thoughts I've been thinking lately. Bloody hell.

I've been surviving on cans of "harden the f*ck up" for 2 months now. The thai chicken flavour with chunks ain't so bad. But I am very ready to hide for some weeks now.