RussellSue
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I've been putting in applications for work since Tuesday. I vowed to only apply for jobs I was SURE I could do. This has, so far, meant things like editorial assistant, paper review tutor, entry-level grant writing and even a part-time warehouse situation. I have experience in sign shop management, caregiving, grant writing, proofreading, small business ownership (laser engraving), etc. I have education in writing, management information systems, grant writing, communications, etc.
Then this development associate position at a local university showed up. Development assistant/associate positions were what I moved to Portland in the market for 18 months ago and before I tore both of my hip labrums, I would have been all over a position like this because it is an excellent fit for my education, is entry-level and since it's a university, I probably won't have to deal with a lot of unprofessional shenanigans (I hope). My pain level is WAY down from where it was this time last year and has been for about 5 months. But in part because pain management and covid-19 put me into social isolation, I feel very insecure about applying to jobs where I will have to play nice with others. For me, spending any time in social isolation and then getting back out there makes me feel like I am walking back out into the world with a lot of new brain damage with low tolerance for people and people stuff.
I don't know where I am at right now. Short of stepping up to the plate and swinging, I don't know how to find out, either. However, my T did point out that failing would be a devastation for me at this point. He also thinks that with the virus, I ought to be more serious about working from home -- he is working from home. So, that makes me want to take the next low-paying stay-at-home job I can find, to a point. However, I am also eager to really do something with my education which, so far, I haven't really done. It's been almost 3 years since I finished school and between having a major flashback that led to a serious relapse of symptoms literally days before graduation, moving around and the injuries, I haven't made much for progress. I've worked but my work was well below my education level.
Does anyone have any insight into this? Any ideas on how to know what I might be ready for or ideas on how to figure it out?
Then this development associate position at a local university showed up. Development assistant/associate positions were what I moved to Portland in the market for 18 months ago and before I tore both of my hip labrums, I would have been all over a position like this because it is an excellent fit for my education, is entry-level and since it's a university, I probably won't have to deal with a lot of unprofessional shenanigans (I hope). My pain level is WAY down from where it was this time last year and has been for about 5 months. But in part because pain management and covid-19 put me into social isolation, I feel very insecure about applying to jobs where I will have to play nice with others. For me, spending any time in social isolation and then getting back out there makes me feel like I am walking back out into the world with a lot of new brain damage with low tolerance for people and people stuff.
I don't know where I am at right now. Short of stepping up to the plate and swinging, I don't know how to find out, either. However, my T did point out that failing would be a devastation for me at this point. He also thinks that with the virus, I ought to be more serious about working from home -- he is working from home. So, that makes me want to take the next low-paying stay-at-home job I can find, to a point. However, I am also eager to really do something with my education which, so far, I haven't really done. It's been almost 3 years since I finished school and between having a major flashback that led to a serious relapse of symptoms literally days before graduation, moving around and the injuries, I haven't made much for progress. I've worked but my work was well below my education level.
Does anyone have any insight into this? Any ideas on how to know what I might be ready for or ideas on how to figure it out?
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