Rock Bottom

[Mikayla43]

I started drinking alot to cope with the emotions and just numbed myself until I received a DUI in June of 09 which was totally a wake up call so I quit drinking. While I was drinking I did not realise that I was suppressing the memories from the war and of my wife. After I quit, my emotions and memories flooded my entire existence and I began to suspect my wife was having an affair. I kept after her by accusing and with verbal and physical abuse. The last time we got into the cops were call and I ended up in jail and the lowest point in life. Now I am out of the house but still have hope and with the appropriate time maybe I can win her back and this why I posting this thread in hopes of getting some encouragement and advice. Is there anyone here in which whom might be going through the same issues and would like to help on this matter?

I understand about the drinking. I had to stop too because it made me worse. I became more verbally abusive and even physical at times! I can tell you how many things i've broken too. I understand the lack of trust. I've done all those things too. You aren't alone. As far as advice, i recently read how important it is to forgive yourself for your mistakes. Everyone makes mistakes so with everything else piled on top of you, don't dwell on those....feel remorse, ask for forgiveness, don't forget to forgive yourself, and be determined to put it to rest.