yes, and I still wake up to the sound of the crash.
new years eve statistic wreck, but sober on the way to a party. driver missed the driveway and had to turn around but there was no where on a one lane gravel road at night, saw lights ahead through the trees and made for them thinking it was another driveway but missed a 90 and flipped us down a ravine in the dark. I was passenger, ended up in backseat underneath 3 people, had the sense to roll a rear window down (up?) and crawled out, scrambled to the road and realised no one else was with me, went back, pulled people out the driver door and back window and scrambled back up to the road where I lay down and didn't get to walk on my own again for almost two months of recovery from severe internal bleeding and some surgeries that followed. Kept my spleen and most of my liver, and did a long stint on hospital heroine that bent my head pretty f*cking bad.
I am still a terrible passenger and I drive like I have some skin in the game cuz guess what? I do! So do all the other idiots that drive like its a video game but thats only because they dont know the terror of a horrible crunch and the feeling that you are going to die unless the ambulance has a good crew and they get here quick.
I became that good crew on a fire truck later on and the one most common thing I heard from other survivors was "I never thought this would happen to me". I know that look in their eye because I have had it myself. some call it shock face, I have heard "cow eyes" and ER nurses can recognise the look on the faces of victims with rigid abdomens from across a crowded room like it's a neon sign.
It gets better but why let it go away completely? Keep the extra edge of a memory of what can happen in your head and maybe you will be able to keep it from happening again, I have.
It's a bad way to wake up, hearing the crunch all over again but I have ways to calm myself and get back to sleep. I can't fix a ruptured liver and bruised spleen and punctured colon with broken ribs. For that you have to lie down and wait and hope it's a good crew.
new years eve statistic wreck, but sober on the way to a party. driver missed the driveway and had to turn around but there was no where on a one lane gravel road at night, saw lights ahead through the trees and made for them thinking it was another driveway but missed a 90 and flipped us down a ravine in the dark. I was passenger, ended up in backseat underneath 3 people, had the sense to roll a rear window down (up?) and crawled out, scrambled to the road and realised no one else was with me, went back, pulled people out the driver door and back window and scrambled back up to the road where I lay down and didn't get to walk on my own again for almost two months of recovery from severe internal bleeding and some surgeries that followed. Kept my spleen and most of my liver, and did a long stint on hospital heroine that bent my head pretty f*cking bad.
I am still a terrible passenger and I drive like I have some skin in the game cuz guess what? I do! So do all the other idiots that drive like its a video game but thats only because they dont know the terror of a horrible crunch and the feeling that you are going to die unless the ambulance has a good crew and they get here quick.
I became that good crew on a fire truck later on and the one most common thing I heard from other survivors was "I never thought this would happen to me". I know that look in their eye because I have had it myself. some call it shock face, I have heard "cow eyes" and ER nurses can recognise the look on the faces of victims with rigid abdomens from across a crowded room like it's a neon sign.
It gets better but why let it go away completely? Keep the extra edge of a memory of what can happen in your head and maybe you will be able to keep it from happening again, I have.
It's a bad way to wake up, hearing the crunch all over again but I have ways to calm myself and get back to sleep. I can't fix a ruptured liver and bruised spleen and punctured colon with broken ribs. For that you have to lie down and wait and hope it's a good crew.