Rough day with my husband (RRPTSD, major depression, ideation)

[RaquelSch]

Whew... today is a bad one. My husband suffers from RRPTSD and depression and anxiety. And often has suicidal ideation.
He is beyond stressed at his job right now and walked into the office this morning and tried to quit. With no other plans.
His supervisors recognized his mental state and didn't accept the immediate resignation. I just had lunch with them and he cried part of the time and went into a disassociative cold and unemotional state the rest of the time.

He is taking all his medications he should. And we got him an emergency appointment with his therapist, but it will take a couple days before she can see him.
I left lunch feeling that he is safe physically. But his ideation is strong today.
These incidents have happened before and I know we'll make it through. But sometimes being married to a person with severe PTSD and strong suicidal ideations feels like being married to a person with a terminal illness. In the sense that I know what will likely end his life one day. We do everything we should be doing. He sees a therapist and a Dr., he takes his medications, he's very self-aware of his conditions

Just needed to rant

 

[LuckiLee]

Hi there. Glad you found us. Do you think he needs a hospital stay?I'm so sorry he's hurting so bad. Do you have a support system for yourself? My guy has SI from time to time, too. It's very scary to say the least. Does he talk about a "plan"? I know when it progresses to a plan, it's time to take this much more seriously. You found a great place for support and understanding. Read around the forums, there's lots to learn here. I'd start with the PTSD stress cup explanation. It's a helpful piece of information. Best wishes to you both!

 

[RaquelSch]

Thank you!
We were able to talk to a counseler this evening. The ideation didn't progress to planning. He is doing much better tonight. He feels a little silly for causing a commotion at work but is sitting next to me on the couch and enjoying some tv.

 

[EveHarrington]

What is RRPTSD?

 

[RaquelSch]

Rape Related PTSD

 

[Ronin]

@EveHarrington, I am assuming rape related ptsd.