My story summed up,
I have had a ruff childhood of emotional abuse from my dad growing up. When I was 14, I was put in foster care by child protective services because of how psycho my dad got when he was on crack. My mom eventually got her parental rights back from the court and took back custody of me when I was 15. I always saw this as a learning lesson on the negative impact drugs can have. So this never really made me sad, just included in hear for context.
After my Dad was put in prison, my older brother turned into an alcoholic and was an asshole all the time, especially when he was drinking. Just to make a long story short, I am now 22 and have been in multiple physical fights with my older brother because of his alcoholism. The last fight we were in got so bad to where he pinned me on my back and was suffocating me. I felt like I was fighting for my life. I have now moved out of that crazy household I was raised in, and avoid going back to my hometown.
It has been two months since the event, ever since the event I wake up everyday with sadness, the only reason why I get up out of bed is to go to work. I have stressful job which makes me not like life even more and can not focus at work anymore. I wear a complete mask at work to hide my sadness around others. I have really bad apathy, I only eat once a day, I am completely numb towards my family.
I am seeing a psychologist to help me with my psyche and truly am trying to have the old me back. I will be seeing a psychiatrist soon, but I have had a bad interaction with Prozac after working out that made me have extreme anxiety, so I stopped taking the medicine after four days.
I feel like similarly to how my front tooth is permanently chipped from the fight, my psyche has been permanently effected from the trauma. I do not think I will ever be the same person again. Can anyone offer advise on what I can do to stop being so depressed? Has anyone had any good experiences with taking SSRI's, or benzo's that has helped with depression? If you have had depression in the past and recovered, what did you do to recover?
I have had a ruff childhood of emotional abuse from my dad growing up. When I was 14, I was put in foster care by child protective services because of how psycho my dad got when he was on crack. My mom eventually got her parental rights back from the court and took back custody of me when I was 15. I always saw this as a learning lesson on the negative impact drugs can have. So this never really made me sad, just included in hear for context.
After my Dad was put in prison, my older brother turned into an alcoholic and was an asshole all the time, especially when he was drinking. Just to make a long story short, I am now 22 and have been in multiple physical fights with my older brother because of his alcoholism. The last fight we were in got so bad to where he pinned me on my back and was suffocating me. I felt like I was fighting for my life. I have now moved out of that crazy household I was raised in, and avoid going back to my hometown.
It has been two months since the event, ever since the event I wake up everyday with sadness, the only reason why I get up out of bed is to go to work. I have stressful job which makes me not like life even more and can not focus at work anymore. I wear a complete mask at work to hide my sadness around others. I have really bad apathy, I only eat once a day, I am completely numb towards my family.
I am seeing a psychologist to help me with my psyche and truly am trying to have the old me back. I will be seeing a psychiatrist soon, but I have had a bad interaction with Prozac after working out that made me have extreme anxiety, so I stopped taking the medicine after four days.
I feel like similarly to how my front tooth is permanently chipped from the fight, my psyche has been permanently effected from the trauma. I do not think I will ever be the same person again. Can anyone offer advise on what I can do to stop being so depressed? Has anyone had any good experiences with taking SSRI's, or benzo's that has helped with depression? If you have had depression in the past and recovered, what did you do to recover?
