Scared about college due to mental illnesses

[Super CoolTM]

Hello, I am a Junoir and in class we're talking about college, and it brought up the constant issue that's bugging me:

How will I be able to keep up in college?

I can barely focus or do anything in the special ED class for Pete's sake.

I have depression, severe anxiety disorders, autism, and untreated schizophrenia. Not to mention the constant nausea, physical pains making it hard to move, dyscalculia (math dyslexia), possible dyslexia, constant horrible tiredness, etc.

It's embarrassing, but I haven't learned almost everything in school until freshman year. I was being abused and dealing with severe mental illnesses that made it impossible to function, so I didn't learn basic math until high school (my dyscalc. makes me forget everything I learn).'

I'm only now getting REAL help for my illnesses, and with college just around the corner, it's like I'm fresh out into the world. I can't do any school work unless I have an adult to make me do it. What am I going to do??
I have a plan for what I'm going to do and such, but I can't do it myself. I'm too sick. I need some help

 

[joeylittle]

Can I ask, who diagnosed your schizophrenia, and why aren’t you receiving any help for it?

One big thing - you don’t need to go to college full time - or even at all - immediately after graduating high school.

I know that in America, that’s the custom - just to go straight thru all your schooling.

But taking a break for a year is really the norm in lots of other places - it’s called a gap-year, you can look it up. Many others start college now by gathering their gen-ed courses in a local community college or jr college. Sometimes because they aren’t academically ready for the school they want to go to ultimately. Sometimes in order to get those courses much more affordably, before going to a more expensive institution.

In other words - you can give yourself time to get ready.

 

[Super CoolTM]

Can I ask, who diagnosed your schizophrenia, and why aren’t you receiving any help for it?

One bi...

Well, that's the thing. No one will diagnose me or take the time to do anything, because my old therapist said "you don't have it because schizophrenics aren't aware of it" which I think is ridiculous. That's how I knew I had depression and anxiety. Because I recognized an issue. But maybe she's right, idk. That's why I don't talk about it, because people will just think I'm making it up or it's not real.

And yeah, that's what I was planning, but everyone is urging me to go straight to highschool. But I can't. I just.. I'm not ready. Thanks friend for your support

 

[joeylittle]

you don't have it because schizophrenics aren't aware of it" which I think is ridiculous.

Well, “schizophrenia” encapsulates a number of more specific disorders. But yes, one of the defining characteristics is the inability to perceive the disorder.

Depression has a subtype that works that way as well. Dysthymia. A hallmark is, the individual does not recognize it as depression; they just believe it’s how they are, or who they are.

You should get a proper second opinion. But you cannot self-diagnose schizophrenia. It’s not helpful to you to do so.

 

[Super CoolTM]

Well, “schizophrenia” encapsulates a number of more specific disorders. But yes, one of the def...

I try my best not to self diagnose. For years and years I didn't think I had a problem, as my illness was more severe then. I would think I'm a cat, that I was a god, etc. But last year I started to not recognize my friends or family (more than usual) so I looked up online what was troubling me, and after lots of looking things up, I've been told I might have schizophrenia, and from there on I realized I have an issue. Not so much of "wow I have schizophrenia, I am special", more like "Doctor, I'm having an issue. What is wrong?"

In my defense, my last "docs" were sucky and misdiagnosed me, didn't help me, and gave me incorrect medicine. I got a new doc and she told me I has schiophrenia.

 

[joeylittle]

I got a new doc and she told me I has schiophrenia.

But she isn’t doing anything about it?

Did she tell you what your current specifier is? I’m asking because I’m trying to understand.