Welcome...ptsd treatments can be scary we have to face and think about the most horrible things that a person should NEVER have to go to go through. It is all about reading, writing out the horrible memories, processing them. reprocessing and putting in the right place. I have been using the forum for a year and a half. I have done cbt and am currently doing emdr. I am learning to live with this and you can to. There are many here to support you. I wish you well and much needed healing.