Sufferer Scared Newby - Childhood Trauma, Abuse, & Trying To Quit Porn As A Coping Mechanism

[Wendell_R]

Safe is the very best thing right now.

 

[Sinner]

I think I am glad I found this place.

 

[Kubash16]

We are too ?

 

[Wendell_R]

Glad you are here.

 

[Sinner]

I really want to leave the porn behind. It has really gotten sick. But sick is what I experienced as a kid. Makes me feel so dirty and discusting. I just want out. Even if it meant ending me. I'm o.k. for now but I'm afraid of getting weaker.

 

[Kubash16]

You are definitely not alone in struggling with porn. It’s a form of trauma re-enactment which is very common. It’s not sick, it’s your brain trying to make sense of things. Is there another activity you have found that gives you the same comfort porn does?

 

[Wendell_R]

Getting a therapist that you feel safe with is the #1 priority. You can get through this, and you're not alone. @Kubash16 and I have both been there. For now, try to put as much good in your life as you can.

 

[Sinner]

I'm waiting working on it. It's hard to find comfort.

 

[Kubash16]

It definitely is, but you can’t give up. While you are waiting and interviewing T’s, are there any support groups you can join?

 

[Sinner]

It's time to start video with wife so I am going to sign off. I have followed you both. Thank you for helping.

 

[LuckiLee]

Can you go to the VA emergency room? My guy did that a few years back when he was suicidal and they got him in the next day with a pdoc.

So sorry you're struggling but I'm really glad you're reaching out for help!!

Welcome to the forums. XO

 

[EveHarrington]

I think it’s important to not rake yourself over the coals anymore for watching porn.

It’s a coping mechanism, and it may take quite some time to stop using it completely.

Many of us have bad coping mechanisms. Punishing ourselves just makes it all worse.