Scared, think i may have disassociated

[Fayne Jane]

I have been feeling really good about y therapy although I had a rough session of Friday with my T regarding my rape it go more intense and lasted longer when I would drift out of it. Two days later I went to our local dog park with my Trooper and walked the same trail I have for 4 years. then suddenly I became disoriented, I knew I was in the park but nothing looked familiar, I couldn't recognize land markers or sites I am use to. Mt Garfield which is north side of I-70 was on the south side and this further confused me. I knew it should be to the north. I kept walking and finally found a bench by the Co river I am familiar with. Then I pieced together that at some point I blacked out or disassociated the one mile walk where I go from heading west to looping around and head East. I have no memory of going through the loop, only becoming disoriented, frightened about where I was. I am in EMDR therapy and close to the end of it. I can't understand what happened to me. Any feedback welcomed, fairly shook up by this experience?

 

[Muted]

I've had some similar experiences in getting extremely lost and I was scared to death, because I didn't know where I was or how I had gotten there. To me that sounds like a major dissociative experience. How long have you been doing EMDR? It surprises me that you're close to the end of doing EMDR. Is your therapist aware of this?

My understanding and experience is that that can be dangerous to not deal with the dissociation issues before you do anymore EMDR especially if the aftermath is a major dissociative episode like that. I'm not sure if you've worked on parts yet, but it sounds like a protective part was possibly dissociating. I hope your working with a good therapist. I would be shook up too.

 

[Fayne Jane]

I see my therapist tomorrow, thanks this is the first time being in therapy I have had it happen. Has a lot of dissociation after my trauma and my Shrink just medicated me to the point of numbness for a year, never offering or suggesting therapy just drugs.

 

[Fayne Jane]

I do have a great therapist but now starting to wonder what is going on. I have had several sessions of EMDR and have worked hard to get past so much pain and memories but today really concerned me. Thanks for your response.

 

[Fayne Jane]

Gia thank you so much for your feedback, it has helped me to ground myself. I will discuss with my T tomorrow.

 

[Nessa7]

Whenever I've had a worse dissociative experience than I'm used to, it is important for me to remind myself than I got through it and am safe. In the moment, you did everything that you needed to do, and you are going to get support from your therapist tomorrow, which is great.

 

[Fayne Jane]

Thank you

I got tips from my T on how to ground myself, thanks