Secret Escape

[CraftyCath]

@Britt.f7 Do you want to be my stowaway? :roflmao:

@Whitneys story I did wonder about a spa day which would be wonderful. My sister won't do B&B as she is used to posh hotels. I think it might be a cottage.

My real worries are that I hate sharing, especially bathroom facilities (but then so does my sister) this comes from my Mother insisting on coming into the bathroom with me when I was little - I hated it and was so embarrassed. Also my sister likes to eat out a lot and I am terrified of eating in public.

I will face it and try to relax and not apostrophise.

 

[CraftyCath]

So it is only a few days to the Secret escape and I am seriously having anxiety attacks.

I am battling with negative emotions and intrusive thoughts. All the 'what if's.' What if I panic, what if I can't eat, what if I can't sleep, what if I have to share, what if I don't like it, what if I cry, what if I get sick?

I know I just need to relax, breathe, ground but I just can't get time alone in this house. No excuse I suppose I just need to let it all go. I just wish I knew where they were taking me.

I'm very hormonal at the moment too which doesn't help.

I need support but there is none to be found here. I had a call from a friend this morning who also has PTSD (not a forum friend) and we were sharing our present difficulties and managed to cheer each other up. So I am feeling a little better for that.

I will face it and try to relax and not apostrophise.

Did I really say that? It should say catastrophise not apostrophise! :rolleyes::D

 

[Britt.f7]

Glad you are feeling at least a little better after your call. I know when it gets closer, the anxiety peaks. At least it is how it is even with my family gatherings. They always turn out fine, but I can't seem to stop the anxiety before them. I almost always want to call it off. But end up glad that I didn't. Ahh, it's just getting to the day. I wish you a moment to ground.

 

[CraftyCath]

Thanks Britt, you are so right and I'm glad I'm not alone in this and that others understand. :hug:

 

[Britt.f7]

I may just have to climb in those suitcases. ;)

 

[Britt.f7]

It's almost here. I hope you are getting more excited then anxious. Have a great time and we can't wait to hear about it when you get back!

 

[CraftyCath]

Well, I am back from my weekend. It was a 4 star hotel in Aberdovey, Wales - on the coast.

I have never stayed in a hotel and this one was beautiful. Here is a link for anyone who would like a look...

http://www.trefwales.com/

I had breakfast in bed one morning but had to face a 5 course dinner each night. The food was fantastic though although I found it odd in this day and age that the men had to dress for dinner. The pool was closed for refurbishment and I had no swimsuit anyway! My room was lovely although it looked over the hills and not the sea.

My sister and sister-in-law booked me in for an eyebrow shape and manicure which was nice.

I never lost the stress at all when I was away, constantly on edge and hypervigilant and I think this was from having to face food in public and from not knowing what was happening and when.

It was lovely but I am glad to be home.

 

[amethist]

Sounds like you enjoyed it, even with the hyper vigilance.

I did take a peak at the hotel, it looks wonderful.

 

[Britt.f7]

I love breakfast in bed! It looks like a beautiful place. I'm glad that you had a decent time. I would have had a hard time with the nightly meals too. Now that you are home, hopefully, you'll be able to relax. They say sometimes we need a vacation after our vacation. So true.

 

[The Albatross]

Good observations about your reaction, and congratulations on having such a 4 star experience!

 

[CraftyCath]

@Britt.f7 Definitely in this case.