Hi all, I'm joining this forum in the hopes of getting some support and connecting with fellow survivors- especially ones that've been through similar things. I'm AuDHD (Autistic and ADHD) chronic pain haver, and I have a habit of repeating myself and being poor with understanding/communicating tone, so I'm sorry in advance if anything appears off.
I've been in therapy only briefly before, and finally started up again recently (just had my first appointment last week :)
) I've never been diagnosed w/C-PTSD but given my history and symptoms it feels silly to deny myself the truth of living with it. My parents were alcholics, my mom was abusive and both of them were and... still somewhat are severely emotionally neglectful.
I suffered a great deal of CSA at the hands of a family member, what I believe is tantamount to torture and I really just feel so alone in life sometimes. I grew up in a red state that has only gotten more hostile to queer people over time, that combined with my issues at 'home', and a lot of intense bullying has sort of left me very isolated.
I'd say the thing I struggle most with is trauma denial :') and dissociation. I struggle to view emotional neglect as a real form of neglect/abuse, or as something that was intentionally done, along with struggling a great deal w/my CSA, it's a terrible thing for anyone to go through and it feels much easier to doubt myself then to accept any aspect of that trauma was real.
I've been eyeing up a few various support forums over the years, but finally decided to take the plunge and join this site after reading an 8 year old discussion post for 3 hours. Seemed like a logical enough decision to make. Denial has been an absolute nightmare for me to manage, I'm hopeful that therapy will help me moving forwards but like I said I am at least a little isolated, and I would like to hear from and converse with other people that've experienced but especially grown past similar scenarios.
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P.S. I'm not really sure this is the place for it, but I'd also enjoy connecting with fellow survivors that do arts and crafts, I for one am big into crochet and painting!
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I've been in therapy only briefly before, and finally started up again recently (just had my first appointment last week :)
) I've never been diagnosed w/C-PTSD but given my history and symptoms it feels silly to deny myself the truth of living with it. My parents were alcholics, my mom was abusive and both of them were and... still somewhat are severely emotionally neglectful.I suffered a great deal of CSA at the hands of a family member, what I believe is tantamount to torture and I really just feel so alone in life sometimes. I grew up in a red state that has only gotten more hostile to queer people over time, that combined with my issues at 'home', and a lot of intense bullying has sort of left me very isolated.
I'd say the thing I struggle most with is trauma denial :') and dissociation. I struggle to view emotional neglect as a real form of neglect/abuse, or as something that was intentionally done, along with struggling a great deal w/my CSA, it's a terrible thing for anyone to go through and it feels much easier to doubt myself then to accept any aspect of that trauma was real.
I've been eyeing up a few various support forums over the years, but finally decided to take the plunge and join this site after reading an 8 year old discussion post for 3 hours. Seemed like a logical enough decision to make. Denial has been an absolute nightmare for me to manage, I'm hopeful that therapy will help me moving forwards but like I said I am at least a little isolated, and I would like to hear from and converse with other people that've experienced but especially grown past similar scenarios.
corny joke alert
corny joke alert over
P.S. I'm not really sure this is the place for it, but I'd also enjoy connecting with fellow survivors that do arts and crafts, I for one am big into crochet and painting!
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