anxietygirl
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I’m new here. Hi everyone.
I suffered horrible child abuse by my dad (who I usually just refer to as my dna donor in case I say that anywhere) and yesterday I was at a union meeting for work when a steward slapped her hands on the table and started yelling at me.
Tbh I only heard a few seconds of her rant and I heard myself say “Please don’t talk to me like that” and “this is inappropriate,” but it was like I was so far away from my own voice even and then I couldn’t even hear anything else. My friends next to me told me people in the back said something, but I just couldn’t hear it, it was like I was there physically, but even seeing things was a blur. It was like I could see things but my mind couldn’t comprehend them and any noise around me couldn’t actually be heard.
I have had this happen before, but never this intense. I haven’t had anyone treat me like this or react like this in my presence in so many years. I ended up grabbing my things and leaving and by the time I got to my car I was hyperventilating and sobbing.
I get that not everyone understands people can be triggered, but I need to figure out more therapy and better therapy and maybe meds if being around people can be this jarring for me. I don’t know. Covid was a blessing for me, I enjoyed not having to worry about others.
I suffered horrible child abuse by my dad (who I usually just refer to as my dna donor in case I say that anywhere) and yesterday I was at a union meeting for work when a steward slapped her hands on the table and started yelling at me.
Tbh I only heard a few seconds of her rant and I heard myself say “Please don’t talk to me like that” and “this is inappropriate,” but it was like I was so far away from my own voice even and then I couldn’t even hear anything else. My friends next to me told me people in the back said something, but I just couldn’t hear it, it was like I was there physically, but even seeing things was a blur. It was like I could see things but my mind couldn’t comprehend them and any noise around me couldn’t actually be heard.
I have had this happen before, but never this intense. I haven’t had anyone treat me like this or react like this in my presence in so many years. I ended up grabbing my things and leaving and by the time I got to my car I was hyperventilating and sobbing.
I get that not everyone understands people can be triggered, but I need to figure out more therapy and better therapy and maybe meds if being around people can be this jarring for me. I don’t know. Covid was a blessing for me, I enjoyed not having to worry about others.