Sensorimotor Psychotherapy

[cherryblossom]

if my T were writing and describing this I am sure he would have some fantastic long words in his vocabulary:nerd:

- maybe - but then us average folk wouldn't understand what he was on about !! :laughing:

 

[Lucycat]

Sensorimotor Psychotherapy is much harder, and more frustrating than I thought.

This week we targeted the trigger that I'd had a few days before. I had to get an image in my mind and think of thet image. Then describe the feelings that this gave me in my body. This is the hard bit. I feel very little and find it incredibly hard to put it into words.

However I felt there was a bit of a breakthrough. I keep telling him that I have no feelings below the waist. I have recovered these feelings for short periods but as soon as the stress rises the feelings shut down again. For the first time , this week , I actually acknowledged both to myself and my T that I don't want to feel anything below the waist .I feel overwhelmed and scared of these feelings and am fighting to keep them suppressed. I have to let them out little by little, over a period of time until they no longer scare me. Before this time I had not realised that I had any control over this.

I do feel like a bit of a fruit cake for not having realised this before.:insane:

 

[WonderingWhy]

BL,
You are certainly not alone in not knowing what/why things are happening. I myself was fooled as were medics and ER Doctors that I was having a heart attack. I was admitted to the hospital. This happened not once, not twice, but three times! It took a while after that to figure out I was having "Panic Attacks".

That was "me" causing it. Just as "you" were causing the lack of feeling. However it's done by our brains to do it's best to protect us. It is done subconsciously. I know it took me a heck of a long time to become aware of it! So no need to feel like a "fruit cake" :rolleyes: