Seroquel And Undisturbed Dreams/nightmares

[sonicwhite]

ok, so I notice for the second time I take seroquel and I have had a nightmare even on my normal dose of gabapentin. Why? Why is it so hard to accept that I have PTSD. Is it because we only have finite minds or is it my faith in God that is ruining my chances of my health getting better.


I'm just telling you folks. I have a hard time trying to figure what the hell is going on inside this head. I know some of my wreckless choices cause this. Detox caused my dreams to go deeper. Now you see why I run for the hills when I am in withdrawal. If I didn't have the nightmares. It would be so much easier to deal with. But because it was withdrawal I can never be sure if it is PTSD or just common feverish withdrawal symptoms you get from withdrawing.

I'm weaning down off klonopin too but very slowly. But I don't think that has anything to do with these emotions and dreams. I hope I can assist someone in life atleast once. And not hurt like I do. I truly am suffering. I just have a hard time grasping the fact that I have ptsd because of all the neglected choices I made in the past on my health. How does one come to know they have these illness or it can be organic? Who the hell knows? All I know is that I'm suffering and it's eating me alive.

 

[ladee]

@sonicwhite, with no disrespect intended..and by all means take what you need and leave the rest.
Many of us have told you, From our OWN experiances. That until you get clean. In a rehab that understands PTSD..nothing is going to change. Nothing. And you can question the chicken and the egg until you are crazy. And nothing is going to change. Nothing.
You want to get thru this pain free and that is not going to happen.
You are an addict by your OWN admission.
There are no magic pills. Prayer isn't going to make PTSD go away.
Many addicts have a case of "terminal uniqueness".
That we are different and we don't have to follow the protical to get clean...
I do believe you want out of this hell you are in..
But there is no easy way out or around.

Only until you are clean..that Dr's will even begin to know what theraputic meds you need to be on..not ones that make you high.
You don't seem to be able to challenge yourself to see what you really want because you are battling addiction
Addiction has already won.
Challenge yourself to see if you really want to get well or not.
But guess you can keep posting what you always do..and we will reply what we always do..and maybe someone looking for a way out of addiction will read and find an answer.
There's no way to tell until you are in a safe detox envionment if the drugs are causing the PTSD symptoms or if you do have PTSD.
I doubt any one of us wanted the PTSD label..like hey yeah!!. Now I get to be a member of a club none of us want to be a member of.
Don't know what else there is to share with you.
Guess I hope you find a way..but there is no eaier softer way.
Hope you get help with your addiction.
I'm out.

 

[sonicwhite]

On the upside I'm on day three of my successful klonopin weaning.

1 mg in the morning.


.5 in the afternoon.



1 mg at night. So far so good. I had a little anxiety during the day but it's nothing real bad. I chose this. I didn't have to come off of it. Maybe once I'm off klonopin. Than I will see gabapentin true potential for an anxiety med. . But who knows really. With the type of OCD I have and the GAD plus only being day three I'm still up in the air on whether or not it's going to work out or not.

 

[sonicwhite]

I by no means feel Your even being mean or whatever the word is. It's more blunt straight to the face type of statement. My dad is ex military with his own bad case of ptsd. So when his bipolar kicks in he gets snappy and I'm a smoker and he has complained of the smoke smell since we've been here since the second.


What I'm trying to say is I don't have the strings I could pull in Oklahoma. I believe that's a good thing. My doc knows already that I have issues with addiction. The thing is I called myself out on it just to say hey I'm suffering. Detox is feeling like total hell. I'm pretty much losing my marbles.



But the addiction is still there. The two weeks of pain was not enough to convince me to stay away from it like it would in the past. I've been down this road before. I went eleven days in 2011 of gabapentin withdrawals until finally I took 200 mg of Zoloft and felt so much better. But all that happened after that was the klonopin started pooping out. I was bouncing back and forth from Valium to Xanax and even stealing robitussin to get high because the Xanax would sedate me so badly.



So in reality my addiction started the day I chose to take a klonopin for the massive anxiety I was going through. To know your going to hell at any moment is the scariest feeling in the world. But still that's no excuse to pop pills and try to forget the world. I have PURE O OCD and look it up. It's the nastiest form of OCD there is. And I seemed to do this to myself.



I was doing good in 06 07 08 just working and believing God had a purpose in store for me, but when I lost my way because I was too damn in love with a chick that was over me two yrs prior I lost my faith. I really can't explain to you how God to the police took me through detox in jail. Suffered nightmares. And this is in 05 when I was on meth x coke pain pills. Weed. Shroom which tipped me over the edge. The police practically had to slam the door shut and let me detox just so I could see the error of my ways.



Thanks to many of you all I gave up meth after being sober from it for eleven yrs. thanks again. My dad is not like a Kevin the man I lived with that would gently help me when I would ask him to take me to the docs. So you see I'm binding myself up but in Oklahoma I had no future. No dreams or goals. My dad however has already said where taking me to GED classes on Tuesday. Imagine the transition from one state to another and given two months notice that you have to leave. There was no warning shots other than I was getting beat down for me apathetic.



To the best of my ability I know that it's going to take time to change the way I was living. I'm already hurting. I'm thankful for the chance to be here but what if my dad passes away? Than I'm screwed. So please bare with me as I try to sort my problems with someone who kinda has the same issues as I do.

 

[sonicwhite]

I said my last words here. I believe I'm on a better path than I once was.

 

[joeylittle]

In case you come back...

Most of science would say that we have dreams, whether we remember them or not - when we are sleeping normally. Drugs can prevent you from recalling dreams one of two ways: either by helping you sleep deeper and slowing your rate of waking (we tend to forget dreams as we are coming out of deep REM sleep) - or, by keeping your sleep more shallow, and shortening the time you spend in the cycles where dreams will occur. Either way, you are likely dreaming; it's only a question of how much/whether you remember.

The content of dreams/nightmares is generally considered to be whatever has been going on in your brain as background noise. Whether the dream is positive, neutral, or negative (nightmare), is influenced by stress.

Withdrawal is stressful, in many ways. It causes havoc in your mind and body. Using one drug to bypass another won't really help much.

I hope you can get clean, and I hope you can get into some CBT or ACT (acceptance and commitment therapy) to work on the OCD and anxiety issues.