Sgt. Russell's Death And Funeral

[3boos]

As a police officer with PTSD, I find times like this, the death and funeral of an officer, almost crippling. It is a huge trigger, and as far as I have come since my incident, I am now right back at the beginning. My thoughts are with his family, and any other sufferers who are triggered by incidents such as these.

 

[KP the nut]

Welcome to the forum. I am sorry for your loss and the memories it stirs up.

Are you seeing a T and can you talk about how you feel? It is not easy, T is really tough.

We need strength to carry on, do grounding techniques to bring us back. Read the information on the home page and accept the support from members. You are not alone.

Over time I believe I will take control of PTSD and although it won't disappear I will control it.

I wish you well
KP

 

[3boos]

Thanks KP, I see T regularly and know why I feel the way I do, I would just prefer not to :)

 

[KP the nut]

Thanks KP, I see T regularly and know why I feel the way I do, I would just prefer not too :)

I know we all would.

I feel like screaming shouting and swearing (I'm too controled to do that), I'm tired of trying to live - that doesn't mean I will end it my life is to precious. My tranum is crash related and while I feel it is OK to sometimes think everyone would be better off if I hadn't survived doesn't mean I would end it.

All we can do is support on another, work on what our Ts tell us and have the conviction that one day it will be better.

Take care
KP

 

[deer_in_headlights]

Welcome to the forum, 3boos!

I'm glad you're posting, and with us.
I'm so sorry that you have PTSD, too; and that you're being triggered and having a difficult time.
My heart aches with you. Can you talk a little about what you're feeling?
If you take them, I'm sending you a (((hug)))...
With warmest wishes that you soon feel comfort and healing,
Deer

 

[3boos]

I was almost killed in a car accident, thought I wouldn't be there for my wife and daughter. I went through terrible sadness and depression before getting proper meds and therapy. This police officer dying, leaving a wife and son, brings back the feelings of sadness, lethargy, sleeplessness, all the things I felt, hoped, were better.
Thanks Deer.

 

[deer_in_headlights]

((((((((3boos))))))))))

I can relate (I've been traumatized by a crash, there are a number of us here...) It's weird isn't it, people think that people surviving a near fatal crash would be overjoyed... and there is some of that lurking around, but with that kind of trauma, it almost feels as if there needs to be a welcoming back into life.

Welcome back, it wasn't your time yet! You are vitally needed and wanted, and you will heal, even with these feelings you have right now... it will get better, you're doing what is right and what you need to do to recover.
With warmest wishes,
Deer

 

[deer_in_headlights]

Dear 3boos,

I've been away from a television. I'm sorry, I just read about Sgt. Russell (killed by a stolen snowplow?!) and that his funeral procession is on now. I'm not even a police officer, and this is hitting me hard... Shaking, no wonder this is stirring up your PTSD symptoms! I wish I could honor him in some way, certainly in prayers for his family, but maybe by bringing you (his fellow in blue) care, encouragement and the help he would want you to have. He would want you healed... not crushed.

Resonating in grief,
Deer

 

[Froggie]

I was almost killed in a car accident, thought I wouldn't be there for my wife and daughter. I went through terrible sadness and depression before getting proper meds and therapy. This police officer dying, leaving a wife and son, brings back the feelings of sadness, lethargy, sleeplessness, all the things I felt, hoped, were better.

My heart goes out to you, so sorry for what happened to you and what all this makes you go through. Like many have said, there are a great deal of good articles here and you will get the support needed from other members, especially those who have had a similar life threatening experience. ((((3boos))))

 

[Iron_Angel]

Hey 3boos, so sorry about Sgt. Russell. I live in T.O. and he seemed to be an example of the kind of hero we want all our officers to be. I was very saddened to hear of his passing.

I am very sorry to hear that it has plunged you back into those feelings. Screaming a little to let off the pressure (into a pillow or towel so you don't frighten the neighbours

) may actually help. Beat the crap out of something with a Nerfbat. Anything that allows you to release the pent-up pressure safely could help.

It's just natural that you're going to slingshot back into bad feelings when you hear of something like that, even though you probably are getting better. Be kind to yourself. Keep on your healing journey knowing that we care, and we support you.

Big hugs!