Shadows In The Midst Of Flames

[The Albatross]

Sorry been absent (and reading back today, yeah I do that on trauma diaries but not other forums) but so far as "I identify my rage, anger, aggression and sexuality with the she wolf. Need her to survive but she can be dangerous to me also.. primal.. raw energy. Trying to understand her better...." from way back. A copy of Women Who Run With Wolves fell into my hands at an opportune time. May be well worth a read though the genre is in story telling form, it was pivotal for me. (re you're post 132).

 

[The Albatross]

I'm playing Skillet today... ironically "Awake and Alive"... still catching up on you girl: Skillet - Awake and Alive

 

[Ironlady]

Sorry been absent (and reading back today, yeah I do that on trauma diaries but not other forums)...

Yes.. that part I have been so removed from that she is making her presence known now.. it's a good and bad feeling all at once.

I love Clarissa Pinkola Estes! I have read many of her books and women who run with wolves is my favorite. I have them on audiobooks. her voice is very soothing. I actually went back and read it again not long after that posts.. I always pick up on something I missed/wasn't ready for before.

 

[Ironlady]

I'm playing Skillet today... ironically "Awake and Alive"... still catching up on you girl:

Hmmmmm.. love that song... thank you so much lady. And no worries for absence. I want you to know I really appreciate you and your insights. :hug:

 

[The Albatross]

Dropping tuneage your way....with good intentions for health and your highest good... Sara Blasko's Sleeper Awake...
sarah blasko-sleeper awake- as day follows night

 

[The Albatross]

Sorry I had to play catch up... life/events/ya know.

 

[Ironlady]

Dropping tuneage your way....with good intentions for health and your highest good... Sara Blasko'...

listening now... thank you dear.. :hug:

 

[The Albatross]

The flickering flame or sometimes just an ember... is there. The life we have is to find and feed it, eh? Sleeper awake, sleeper awake... actualize and participate in this life. You have something unique to contribute, only you can discern what it means. It is not perpetual misery, necessarily... it is conscious act or accept gal, k?

 

[Ironlady]

Sorry I had to play catch up... life/events/ya know.

No worries...

The flickering flame or sometimes just an ember... is there. The life we have is to find and feed...

I'm learning... I have been making strides in forging meaning in a sense.. being creative, investing time in my art business, public speaking to raise cptsd awareness, donating my art to charity... volunteering... so getting better at not just suffering for the sake of suffering,.., reprogramming patterns takes time though. Sometimes slip and fall.. it's a choice yes. Sometimes I decided to sit in the muck I'm sitting in. Other times I get up and dust off my britches and do something productive/positive

 

[The Albatross]

Keep moving and guess what... eventually the hard wiring eases and the brain (stubborn thing that it is) moves along.

 

[The Albatross]

Amanda Palmer... last music vid today for you (and me) k? In My MInd....
"In My Mind" Music Video

It is a hard sell here even, to think that management of an injury/disorder is beneficial... but it can be. If we learn how to deal with adversity now, it helps/assists us in later/elder life. REALLY. Just food for thought. Is it comfortable? Hell no... but in the longer term... you betcha. Honest.

 

[The Albatross]

Added in edit so you might not like it anymore.