shared for the first time

[mylunareclipse]

Not sure where this really belongs.
But I just did it. I shared with someone other than my husband that I have flashbacks. That's all I could text. I didn't say what why when. But I said to my friend: some days are hard for me due to having flashbacks of trauma.
And the world didn't end.
I think I was ready after almost 4 years to share this with someone other than my therapists and husband.
It feels like a step in the right direction. Like all of a sudden I became 3D, I could be myself and could stop pretending I was this 2D version of myself. Wow.

 

[EveHarrington]

Congrats!

 

[Wendell_R]

And the world didn't end.

That's wonderful that you could envision the possibility of revealing your trauma without the world ending, and then when you did it, the world didn't end.

 

[ladee]

That was awesome!!! You did it!!! And to see yourself as a whole person, exceptional!!!

Very happy that you took that risk and found out, it's ok to be you. Gentle hugs of congratulations, if you accept!!

 

[mylunareclipse]

thank you so much!! I have spent the last four years in deep denial. Meaning I would accept that these symptoms were happening to me when on my own, but I would never even dare admit to my therapist that I was actually struggling. I would be like ya I had few hours of flashbacks but I am FINE. So I felt split, like a part of me was going through this stuff and then the real part of me was living in the every day life. Now for a second these became one. I am the person that struggles with flashbacks and I am the person that exists in the world.

 

[Teasel]

That's fantastic, onwards and upwards :)