Sharing core beliefs

[tiler]

During a therapy session I was focusing on an event in the past week where I had felt terror. T had asked me what I believed about myself in that moment. Is this what my core belief would be?

Anyway, I told her that it was that ‘I can’t advocate for myself’. But actually it wasn’t that and I don’t know why I couldn’t express my actual beliefs that ‘I am an idiot and I am a massive problem for other people’.

I think I was overthinking it, like those were my first thoughts but then I kind of tried to elaborate on what they stopped me doing which was advocating for myself and told her that instead.

 

[arfie]

i never attended sunday school, but my psychotherapy sessions on core beliefs felt like what i had imagined sunday school to feel like. or was that philosophy class? a wiccan meetup? a high school pot party? by whatever comparison, the core values discussions all confuse the unholies out of me.

still. . . the discussions get me thinking about the assumptions i use to navigate my daily life. i'm not sure clear, inflexible answers are the point of the discussion. i believe self-awareness is the goal. just believing. . . this week. . ,

 

[Friday]

During a therapy session I was focusing on an event in the past week where I had felt terror. T had asked me what I believed about myself in that moment. Is this what my core belief would be?

Anyway, I told her that it was that ‘I can’t advocate for myself’. But actually it wasn’t that and I don’t know why I couldn’t express my actual beliefs that ‘I am an idiot and I am a massive problem for other people’.

They both are… but… Being unable to advocate for yourself being a byproduct of what you believe about yourself. So you learn, through countless experiences, that you cannot advocate for yourself (and thus it becomes a core belief, in and of itself, over time); BECAUSE of the deeper belief about yourself.

Bring both in next time.

NOTHING wrong with the surface level one coming first, and the deeper one waiting.

Expect a lot of that.