You've laid out great questions, and to keep things straight, her name is Ronette so I don't get confused in the morass of people I've seen. What's to follow is my initial reaction and remembrance of much or all of what you're asking.
I wasn't there for trauma in any manner, Bipolar and GAD only. Trauma was never a focus, It had stopped so long ago and I had found so many ways to adapt to it, that while I had intrusive memories (the 1st things I can remember) I think that's all and I was very guarded in revealing them to anyone. I didn't have a clue what they were so bringing them up to her or anyone else didn't make any sense to me. I believe I began making brief mention, literally 1/2 minute or less of some very near the beginning and as we went along I remember her saying she thought I was kidding around, like should I use a .338 Lapua or stay with a common 30.06 because it's harder to trace (revenge).
While I can't remember the detail as to what I said, it would have involved my fighting, not just laying down. So that would be the first time and roughly the first experience she heard of but softened.
I've told about not trusting anyone, particularly men to the point I won't have a male therapist, I avoid men on the street . I will not go near or in a H.S. I've taken Isshin-ryū Karate, trying to take Krav Maga and developing my own more flexible style I told her about because I'm not as quick or strong as before. I"m basically terrified but that didn't really hit me until recently with something at work that I told her about (and now it's really hitting me again).
She's been aware of everything but the last sentence since early on with the first intrusive memories.
Thanks for asking. They were good questions. Sorry if the answers are rambling but it's almost 2:30 here and I'll be dead tomorrow morning.
