Sick To My Stomach-

[OKRADLAK]

It seems like a year, not a week since I went to my T last. And found out she is friends with someone who was implicit in the PTSD .

Now I go back today and I am sick to my stomach. I did not sleep last night hardly. And vomited yesterday.

I have decided I can't do this. Today will be my last day with her. I am pretty sure I can find another one outside of this small village where everyone knows everyone else.

I sure cannot go through this hell every week.

I will try to talk to her, but I really can't tell her I can't go to her because she is friends with XYZ!

I just can't get over that and there are other Ts so I do not feel I am running away, though I might be blamed as doing just that...

 

[AngelaMarie]

I will be thinking of you. Confrontation is so very difficult for me. I do understand some of what you are feeling! Sorry you are feeling so betrayed. Hang in there and try to keep in mind that this too shall pass.:(

 

[NIKI]

I don't think you have to feel bad at all for wanting to change your T. There is nothing wrong with it. ;)

 

[Heather]

I agree with Angela confrontation is HARD! You are doing what your gut is telling you is right.:) That is awesome!

I don't think you're running away. You are doing what is right for you AND that is the most important thing -- TAKING CARE OF YOU.

Hugs. Heather

 

[Zemi]

How did you go? were you able to tell her?

 

[Srain]

It's your therapy you must take care of you. I hope all went well.
hugs,
Rain

 

[OKRADLAK]

Thank you guys for your support!! It really helped me to stay strong and be determined. I told her my fears about her knowing the Dr and she was very kind and understood and so laid out the laws regarding privacy in great detail. Further she explained her own policies and how she takes privacy very very seriously.

I know that some do not because I have had therapists talk to me about other patients in ways that could have identified the patients. Some know they can get away with it. She said even if she could theoroetically get away with it, she would not do it.

I very much appreciated how she laid it out because even though she is friends with the Dr who caused me so much distress, she would never even hint that I was her client. I specifically asked about the Dr which took a lot of guts because they are friends. And she was not offended. I was very surprised.

So I actually think I can trust her which is a BIG THING. Or I am deciding to trust her.

I am glad that I did it and I am glad that you guys supported me. THANK YOU!! :tup:

 

[Reclusive]

Wow, what a great outcome! I'm so happy she was so good to you. A good t like that is hard to find. It still would be understandable if you changed, but I think you've taken a seriously huge step here.

 

[Kintsugi]

Wow, way to go. Honestly, I don't think I could have gone back. That's great that she talked with you about her policies and made her ethics clear. But if it ever became too much, I don't think that you would be running away. It seems like it could be a compromising situation.

 

[AngelaMarie]

I am really glad things turned out well for you!!!!:tup:

 

[ronin47]

Congratulations! That tooks some really tremendous courage. I'm seriously impressed that you did talk to her even though you felt so afraid. You should do something to reward yourself for such fortitude.

 

[Ron]

Awesome!:)