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LOL I'm glad I made you laugh, Heather! We can use all the humor we can get! And growing things is very healthy psychologically and chias are a good place to start. ;)

Yay, Bordo!!!! How'd you do it, do you know?

 

[Kintsugi]

That's awesome, Bordo!

 

[Bordo66]

Well I slept aweful for days and I slept on huge double sized air bed in a cold room and was awesome haha

P.S. Those animals looks awesome xD what exactly is it?

 

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I LOVE sleeping cold! That's the best kind of sleep!

I don't know if you're talking about my avatar or not, but it's a Fennec Fox. They're so cute and I love foxes. They make me happy.

 

[Bordo66]

I was talking about the Chia Pets but now I did notice the fox cute eyes :3 but I guess 1 bite from the fox and I'm dead :)?

 

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Neither the Fennec Fox nor the Chia Pets have a deadly bite. ;) I'm serious, though. There are all sorts of studies out there that support that growing something is extremely healthy for you in so many different ways. I think when payday rolls around I'm going to get a Chia Pet because my bamboo died (I think I overwatered it).

 

[Bordo66]

Suicide seems like a nice welcome, Im getting the feeling im gonna break

 

[Lionheart]

You owe it to yourself to get some psychological help even if that means being admitted to the hospital. There is no shame in feeling suicidal, but it is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. I hope you will seek out some help for yourself!

 

[OKRADLAK]

Bordo, please tell someone. Tell someone who can help you not to choose it! Even if you have to go into hospital, please ask for help. You are a part of this forum and we are all trying........don't give in!!

 

[NIKI]

NO, don't do it! I just looked at your profile page and my heart sank when I saw you are only 19. You truely have a whole lifetime ahead of you!

Please tell someone. If there is no one then get yourself to the hospital any way you can and tell a doctor, a nurse, anyone! I have felt like that before and put myself in the hospital for a week about 3 years ago and came out a different person. I never think of suicide anymore. I realized that is really the end. No more. Gone.

YOUR ONLY 19. I don't know if you are married. If not then you probably haven't met your future wife yet, you haven't met your children yet. If you die now, you never will. Give yourself a chance to live.

 

[Bordo66]

It took me a lot of time to seek help at home, im in a different country now and I dont have the feeling/need to tell any1 here about my problems. Im on the same island with a few more classmates, so we went to have a drink 2 days ago, really felt a lot better.

The difference between home & guernsey is: I always had my PC when I felt bad, now I dont have it. Im here for 5 days now but it feels like eternity, the first and third night I was just crying in my room. Because I was going beserk. I didnt know what to do.

Im not planning on giving in so fast. But sometimes its diffecult to get up again, I guess I fall back in the i'm all alone. At home I at least had the psychologists etc, also got my medication but I sleep better already, so dont have the need for it yet.

 

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When are you going to be back home? I'm sorry you're having such a rough time and being in a different country can be really hard on you. Hang in there, though, and remember we're here rooting for you!