Thanks for your posts
@PiggyBack and
@whiteraven
I'm almost two months in and I still hate it and still feel that I am having more disruptive sleep using the CPAP than I was before. I'm not stopping breathing or snoring when I'm using the CPAP (so these are good things). I also haven't had a night terror since using it and have had about three hallucinations in the whole time - I would often have two or three hallucinations a week. I have mixed feelings about that aspects of things but that's probably something for another thread!
Aside from the main bonus of not snoring when I use it, I just feel so fed up with it and that things are worse than before. I'm waking up so much in the night then have to mess around with the machine each time because then the pressure is too high for me to comfortably get back to sleep again and air is then whooshing so noisily etc. So I feel way more conscious about waking in the night and then having to make an effort to get back to sleep again than I was before.
I haven't yet managed to keep it on for the whole night. I'm probably averaging about 4.5 hours a night - a few times it's been as little as 1.5 hours and I think my record has been 6 hours. Sometimes I turn it off or take the mask off in the night without realising I've done it. Other times I just get so furious with it because I'm awake again and it's hindering me getting back to sleep, so I take it off and then can get comfortable and fall asleep again without it.
I'm still really struggling with not being able to get comfortable laying on my side. So, perhaps another sort of mask is worth a try. I can't get any other sort of mask from the sleep clinic (NHS) so would have to buy one.
@whiteraven I like the sound of the nasal pillows as think they sound way less intrusive. Wondering though what happens if you breathe though your mouth? Aside from not being able to find a comfortable side sleeping position, my other biggest challenge with this bloody thing at the moment is that my nose is getting so blocked so I then have to resort to mouth breathing but then my throat gets really sore and dry and then I wake up choking! I'm using a nasal spray before I go to bed at night to try to keep my nose clear - and I even recently got a stronger one from my GP. And I have the CPAP humidifier on. But I keep coming up against this problem. When my nose is completely blocked, I have no choice but to breathe through my nose...but then that causes other problems with my throat. I'm thinking that nasal pillows may not work as the air going up my nose would cause loads of congestion but if I then open my mouth, the mask wouldn't work properly as air would leak? I've heard of people using nasal mask and then taping their mouth shut or buying a chin strap to keep their mouth closed but they're not options for me - firstly, because it doesn't solve the problem of me being too blocked up to breathe and secondly because even the mere thought of having my mouth forcibly closed is very anxiety-making for me.
Bah! Sorry...long old moan here. I'm just so fed up and wish I'd never gone to the sleep clinic in the first place!