Sleep Distubances Are Back

[ground crew]

I got a job that is great and they value what i do. The commute is long at an hour each way. That is a sressor for me. But the big stressor is the product being developed is dual use. One use is very good and humanitarian. The other....not so much. I have been pretty determined to not build offensive weapons since i got out of the service. My form of avoidance gives me a zenish out look on violence. I can not be an instument pf death. Ok that is not apparent when irritated or startled. But i could have been on the DOD gravey train for anout three decades! So this is some big time avoidance.

Now my nights are short and i wake sweat soaked repeatedly at night. I had calmed that shit down with good therapy! I am into the second week and i am beat! I need a job, they pay, the product is good with a fabulus potential!

But what about sleep?

 

[Friday]

To be clear off the bat... I'm not trying to justify or rationalize... You're in a moral dilemma, and only you have the keys to that one.

The question I have, is that I can't think of any kind of useful tech or innovation that doesn't have military applications... Whether they realize it in advance enough to fund it, or not.

I really can't. If it helps people or machinery? It has the potential to be put to offensive military use. Even if that use is keeping units operational in the field longer, faster, stronger, with less attrition.

So where do you draw the line?

Are the people that would be helped not worth saving, because of the people who will be hurt? It's a hard question. There is no right answer there, IMO. I have my own answer, but that may vary wildly from most peoples. As I said... Moral dilemma.

<PM coming>

 

[ground crew]

But when it was a medical device, i was happy and excited. Its that duck-rabbit optical illusion. Once you see the other, it's hard to see the first.

And if i don't do it, somebody will. And i can see to the user safety either way. Being a rescuer maybe i can rationalize it that way.

But the horror if used in war! That is the nagging worry.