Slightly Obsessed With The Idea That I'm Not Clean Today

[aut555]

First you went through so many stressors that day. Starting with the train, you didn't get to decompress with a little bite to eat and the stress about almost missing your appointment. That nurse should have brought you socks or asked if you had some shoes to walk through hall. Maybe next time, can you leave on a pair of socks? And that's horrible that nobody cleaned up the toilet floor. How would you have done this differentially? Could you ask the nurse to come back in five mins while you cleaned your feet? I am sorry about the stressors all bundle into one horrible day. You must have some anger, and feelings of helplessness bound up in the feelings of unclean feet. And a definite loss of control. So don't let this happen and bring? Socks? A voice to tell nurse to wait? Paper towels to clean floors? What can you do to feel more in control? Much compassion to you .

 

[mamachick]

Please know, I was not minimizing your point, only sharing my own ICK experience. We all have our own threshold. I told me 75 yr old OCD friend that my daughter had bedbugs, and 3 wks later when I was about to drive her an hour to the city, (she knows I am very clean,) sut obsessed on the fact that I drove my daughter in my car 3 wks earlier to get rubber sheets that zip closer, spent the day at the health dept in attempts to find out how to prevent getting them while hitching a ride. After 2 nurses, evidently some dr told her to cover her seat with a white sheet and wear a rubber coat. LMAO She confessed this to me on the way home.
I guess I try to find some amount of humor in the after fact that what will be-will be. I am not minimizing your. When my kindergartner came home with lice, I soon discovered something on my sheep dog. A friend took him to vet on back of truck (she had more reasoning skills at that moment.)The dog had fleas and I made them keep him till they were gone, several days at a cost I could not afford.

I just think we all have our limit, and you hit yours. No judgement if it is high or low.