Bananie
Silver Member
I started this job 8/28. It's a call center. There was a month of training. That went ok. Then we went out on the phones. Within a week of being in the phones, I ended up in the hospital, for a possible heart issue (I had a heart attack 3 years ago). It was only an overnight stay, followed by a bunch of tests, at the end of which my cardiologist was like, well, we'll leave things how they are and see you in 6 months.
Since then I moved out of one place I was staying that sucked, into another place, that turned out even worse, and now I've settled at least into my own place, but i think being in my own place, finally, and feeling somewhat safer has now allowed what I was numbing out to come flooding out. I also just stopped my antidepressants (I ran out, haven't had the wherewithal to arrange for the appt with the primary i walked out on in October).
The main point I'm trying to make I guess is that, my work performance this past month has gone way down. Attendance, my scores on calls, everything. On Monday I even started self harming at my desk. I haven't done that in over 2 years.
I did tell my supervisor a little about what's going on, but not everything, I don't know/trust her that well. A coworker friend suggested I talk to hr, to let them know.
I guess my question to you guys, and I'm sorry if this isn't quite coherent, or if I shouldn't ask here, or, well, sorry for anything, I guess. In general, I'm sorry for my existence, and all that gets disrupted because of it.
Right question, point. Should I tell my supervisor more? Should I talk to hr? I did way back in the beginning when we were filling out forms self disclose that I have a disability, even though my case is pending so I'm not certified disabled (if I was, I probably wouldn't be working here at all, I'd stick to part time), but didn't request any accommodations. I guess just in general I asking for advice on how to handle it all? What should I do? Thanks. I typically just up and quit jobs when I get like this, but I can't. Or, I get fired. Or I have a heart attack and die, then go back to the job that killed me and get fired after a few months.
Well, that one only happened once.
Since then I moved out of one place I was staying that sucked, into another place, that turned out even worse, and now I've settled at least into my own place, but i think being in my own place, finally, and feeling somewhat safer has now allowed what I was numbing out to come flooding out. I also just stopped my antidepressants (I ran out, haven't had the wherewithal to arrange for the appt with the primary i walked out on in October).
The main point I'm trying to make I guess is that, my work performance this past month has gone way down. Attendance, my scores on calls, everything. On Monday I even started self harming at my desk. I haven't done that in over 2 years.
I did tell my supervisor a little about what's going on, but not everything, I don't know/trust her that well. A coworker friend suggested I talk to hr, to let them know.
I guess my question to you guys, and I'm sorry if this isn't quite coherent, or if I shouldn't ask here, or, well, sorry for anything, I guess. In general, I'm sorry for my existence, and all that gets disrupted because of it.
Right question, point. Should I tell my supervisor more? Should I talk to hr? I did way back in the beginning when we were filling out forms self disclose that I have a disability, even though my case is pending so I'm not certified disabled (if I was, I probably wouldn't be working here at all, I'd stick to part time), but didn't request any accommodations. I guess just in general I asking for advice on how to handle it all? What should I do? Thanks. I typically just up and quit jobs when I get like this, but I can't. Or, I get fired. Or I have a heart attack and die, then go back to the job that killed me and get fired after a few months.
Well, that one only happened once.
