Perhaps you should tell your T your concerns. I have similar issues in T. My T tries not to be directional, but when she asks me what we should talk about I have no idea. similarly, when she asks me how I am I always answer okay. That is the same answer I give anyone who asks me.
But we have discussed this, and it's now almost a joke. She asks how I am, and I say okay.
I don't think your T doesn't want to see you anymore, but is waiting for more input from you. (yep, scarey). Tell her, you don't know what to say, or what you need to talk about. At least this will open a discussion. Bring you and your T to a closer understanding and hopefully find a way to move on from there.
I don't know if this is the case for you, but I really need to be 'pushed' to talk. Some people can go to therapy, and just talk non stop. That's not me. If you need to be pushed, then tell her this. It takes quite a while to build up a good working relationship with your T, which can only be done by being honest.
Just as a by the way, because I find it so difficult to talk, I have sometimes written things down, for my T to read. I don't see any shame in doing this, and it opens a conversation.
I have written about this somewhere else, but there is currently an UK government TV ad about awareness to colon cancer. The main tag from a doctor, is that "I don't care how you tell me, just tell me". It's a difficult subject to raise, but very important to detect and treat. I think the same way with T's. It doesn't matter how you tell them, just tell them. They are not there to judge you, just to help you. And raising a subject that worries you, in any way that you can, can only be a good thing.
Good luck.
