Hi Jasmine:hello:
Welcome to the Forum.
I hope Christmas went ok (or better) for you and your children.
I have read each of your posts on here. And each time I did, I nodded my head "yes", meaning I could really relate to all you you have been writing, except that I am not a carer/have no children.
I have recovered from C-PTSD and 14 years of abuse and traumas in early life. I'd say I am recovered 95 to 99%. I still react to certain sudden noises, but not all of them, and lived in fear almost constantly, but not anymore. Sure, sometimes I wish I had more confidence if I traveled or was in a relationship, but overall I have to say I'm happy more times than not.
You asked "how do we know if it is our PTSD symptoms that are out of control, over-reacting or if it is our true self, our inner child, our healthy self listening to the gut feelings?
This is an excellent and important question, I think. The answer is simple. You'll know it's your true self. It will feel natural, even if over-reacting. You can tell when being dramatic is part of the natural, ego-state, self, or when it's fueled by PTSD. If you are in doubt, then it's probably PTSD.
The secret to getting better is to do exactly what you are doing now: therapy, observation and self reflection. We progress by asking questions about ourselves. The trick is to ask the right questions. Each time you do, a light will go off.
For example, cognitive based therapy helps us overcome the faulty thinking we have acquired due to negative programming. When I ask/analyze a situation that is bothering me and find the truth in my statement, I correct my thinking and am one step closer to leading a balanced life.
It's not always easy, but then again, neither is going back to my old ways. So if I am going to struggle, I may as well make it count right?
Don't give up. Keep asking questions, learn to become your own best friend by fair fighting with yourself and treating yourself now and then. You'll make it someday!!
It's baby steps and painful, but worth the fight, as you will someday hopefully see. And when you do, you'll probably look back and feel that what you are most proudest in your life, besides your children, will be the sufferings you bore in silence, and the sufferings you overcame from hard work.
Hard work is the answer, but so is letting go and thinking "today is not a good day to fiht with myself or to self-analyze".
I'll end by quoting Plato: "Know thyself!"
Johnny
Welcome to the Forum.
I hope Christmas went ok (or better) for you and your children.
I have read each of your posts on here. And each time I did, I nodded my head "yes", meaning I could really relate to all you you have been writing, except that I am not a carer/have no children.
I have recovered from C-PTSD and 14 years of abuse and traumas in early life. I'd say I am recovered 95 to 99%. I still react to certain sudden noises, but not all of them, and lived in fear almost constantly, but not anymore. Sure, sometimes I wish I had more confidence if I traveled or was in a relationship, but overall I have to say I'm happy more times than not.
You asked "how do we know if it is our PTSD symptoms that are out of control, over-reacting or if it is our true self, our inner child, our healthy self listening to the gut feelings?
This is an excellent and important question, I think. The answer is simple. You'll know it's your true self. It will feel natural, even if over-reacting. You can tell when being dramatic is part of the natural, ego-state, self, or when it's fueled by PTSD. If you are in doubt, then it's probably PTSD.
The secret to getting better is to do exactly what you are doing now: therapy, observation and self reflection. We progress by asking questions about ourselves. The trick is to ask the right questions. Each time you do, a light will go off.
For example, cognitive based therapy helps us overcome the faulty thinking we have acquired due to negative programming. When I ask/analyze a situation that is bothering me and find the truth in my statement, I correct my thinking and am one step closer to leading a balanced life.
It's not always easy, but then again, neither is going back to my old ways. So if I am going to struggle, I may as well make it count right?
Don't give up. Keep asking questions, learn to become your own best friend by fair fighting with yourself and treating yourself now and then. You'll make it someday!!
It's baby steps and painful, but worth the fight, as you will someday hopefully see. And when you do, you'll probably look back and feel that what you are most proudest in your life, besides your children, will be the sufferings you bore in silence, and the sufferings you overcame from hard work.
Hard work is the answer, but so is letting go and thinking "today is not a good day to fiht with myself or to self-analyze".
I'll end by quoting Plato: "Know thyself!"
Johnny
