Sufferer Someone Died Today

[novemberDark]

I haven't figured this site out yet either. Sometimes you can edit things to fix gibberish from my little keypads of the phone. Sometimes I don't have the option, don't in this case for the above. All I know is I got that strange phone call after being on a web site posting. Maybe I'm just paranoid but still strange. Never happened before on my cell.

 

[novemberDark]

Thank you junebug hugs always good warm! I don't have energy to fight with either.

 

[Tinyflame]

Now it's four. :cry: I don't understand where the disconnect lays between other's understanding what's occurred for these people and why they end up feeling (not surprisingly) as they do. I mean, I do understand, but I don't understand why they (the military) won't address it. Well, I do understand that, too, but it makes me feel sick. :cry: :(

 

[novemberDark]

I feel like less of a 'freak' because it's more common (suicide and ptsd, here combat or military-related ).

Its comes from being normal, being human, I feel like a freak too but reality your not. Neither are vets and that's a fact!

 

[novemberDark]

I still haven't gotten this quotes business down, sorry junebug.

As far as your last reply, you feel sick, I got angry.
I took sometime to digest, I avoided the news and I didn't even know.

Survival seems to be so trivial even here. That just creates feelings of helplessness too.
But if you think about physical illness its trivial for everyone ! I try keep my feet on the ground that way.

Maybey its addressed now but its a tricky one because again military conditioning, stops a lot of reaching out also!.
To me it's always going to be a one way loyalty street not on sesame!.

The only real loyalty lies between sisters and brothers in arms, they can reach out to eachother.

Only after my friend mentioned, that a soldier spoke to a crowd, I listened to the news broadcast.

I also think that they're still in the process of findings about ptsd.
There seem to be some good things coming out, like realizing not to put a soldier out of the armed forces right away ( probably means making them paper pushers) but he, they're still learning.....and finding K9s are good therapy, working at a hospital etc.
But I always wonder where the politics come in!

They think its for the better once not around anymore for their loved ones.
I know that a child of a parent that commits suicide, they somehow blame themselves.
It is the opposite off the better way out. I really peppered that in!.

I also know that when someone you love, their pain becomes so unbearable, that you let them go. As an adult we can understand at least that, but a child does not.
When someone is in that state of being, they are incapable to think about that. I lived that first hand as a side kick.
That's what makes me sad.

Actually mad, because it's easier ( appart from holes to patch up, broken hand and no work for a while ( I need to type), couple of staples in the head). I think your better off feeling sick, than getting the latest trend off piercings!.

Junebug when you're so strong you're here, you reply, feel for others, give hug, your real girl !
Hope your well, hope you stay that way.Don't take to much of this to your own hart, but you got me to write some things out here and I thank you for that.

 

[Tinyflame]

Dear novemberDark, thank YOU. :hug:

 

[ms spock]

I hope you get as much out of this forum as I do novemberDark. This place is awesome in my opinion. I appreciate all the hard work that goes into make it function.

You share with vigor and energy. I find your posts interesting, sometimes I can't follow so well though.

The Moderators tend to be very helpful in letting you know the rules via sending you an email and where to find stuff. Post to the HelpDesk if you need assistance or read the rules on the Help Pages. Really clear and good.
The Mods do a lot of hard work so it is nice to treat them with respect and the occasional thank you.

I think the sound of workouts is great. Today I went and had a boogie board and felt much better after that. I walked near the sea as well.

 

[novemberDark]

Oh that is so nice that you have the sea there. Good for you, that you went on a boogie board (although I have no idea what that is).

Sometimes typing from a phone keypad really takes a run with my texts, no spell check, and English not being my first language doesn't help I'm sure. I have an opportunity to be on a PC at the moment, but then there's still this hand problem....
Think I will stick to reading on my phone for this site. Your right there was a lot of information here that helped me too.
I'll be sure to thank the moderators from this great site, also for even tolerating some of the gibberish from before on here.

I am at times confused too and should not type while going through strong emotions either. How could I makes sense to anyone else when I don't understand myself yet !

 

[ms spock]

A boogie board is like a small surfboard. It is half sized. Gosh it was cold in the water yesterday. But it was good to get out.

Having English as a second language does mean it is more of a challenge I am sure but it is helpful if you let people know this (as you just have done) I chat to someone who also does not have English as a first language and I do my best to make allowances.

 

[novemberDark]

O I see, so your a surfer that's really cool and re cold water, great! Slows the hart rate down. I used to have a bath tub ( had to move cheaper) and used to use it to do that.

I'm waiting for the freeze so I can skate (not in rink dizzy making circles).

Roller blading, up/ down hill, off for a while now.

Shouldn't be replying using the phone, but want to share a linksomeone send me, that got me to totally zone out.

Posting it here after, sorry but can only do 1 thing at a time with this phone (like the rational mind) its sometimes pathetic!

 

[novemberDark]

Hope someone can zone out for a view minutes, like I did with the link below. It's not new but was sent to me recently, once you pass the advertisement the talking modus operando floating !

 

[ms spock]

O I see, so your a surfer that's really cool and re cold water, great! Slows the hart rate down. I used to have a bath tub ( had to move cheaper) and used to use it to do that.

I am not really a surfer I don't have the skills. But I can catch waves close into shore.

The changing of temperature is useful to manage emotions at times.