Yeah, think a lot of us just want to feel safe. When you lose control, you feel powerless and that's when that fear kicks in and that's when we start thinking or God forbid acting on whatever rationale we can think of to take back control of a situation where you feel safe again. That's when we look or do something that makes us look crazy. Once again, part of the struggle. I get way out there sometimes and thankfully am aware of it more than I used to be. God has blessed me the past few months with someone I can talk to who understands what's making me think that way and I have been just telling them what is going on in my head when I get bugged up and its like they pull me back in. Not to many people understand how that whatever it is kicks in and takes control of your rational thinking. I guess it is that survivor instinct burnt in a lot of our psyches. Im just guessing
