Something Is Rotten In Denmark

[The Albatross]

Sometimes I just don't know what to write/say. All I know is I may ruminate on bottoming out... but the reality is too frightening for me. It is a healthy fear. I am more afraid to hit bottom again than slugging it out where I'm at. If I had a wish, I'd wish that for you Simon.

 

[Kintsugi]

So, I saw my T last night after not sleeping for... 31 hours, because I'd pulled a double the night before and decided to stay up and Get Shit Done. After quite nearly an hour of catching her up on the State of Affairs she missed from all of July ( :eek: ), I squeezed in all the suicidal stuff at the end as an anecdote. She felt less than anecdotal about it and mandated I see a psychiatrist before seeing her next. It wasn't clear what the consequences of not doing that would be, but psych wards were mentioned. She was unimpressed by my assertion that I was not suicidal because my dogs wouldn't have a place to live. We talked briefly about coping mechanisms. She was *very* unimpressed.

Le sigh.

 

[joeylittle]

As hard as all this is - you did good by yourself, making sure you covered the suicidality topic. Sometimes we can think we are more ok than we are. (Not saying that's the case, more that it's why an outside eye is helpful).

 

[a3a2]

I have refused to seek food stamps historically because my family would not let me starve. However,...

I have seen quite a few anorexic people who think they look awesome...but this is not the reality. And even if you do look awesome now, if the anorexia continues, you will not soon look awesome. Get the food stamps, get the help you need to be healthy.