Sometimes My Paranoia Keeps Me Up At Night.

[Sleeplessly violent]

Sometimes I can not sleep because I am so paranoid about someone entering my house. I lock all the windows and doors but it never feels like enough. I have had my ccw for some time now and it eases the tension but never drowns out the fact that someone some day will show up. Whether is the wind rattling my door or the house creaking I wake up in adrenaline clutching my gun only to have to clear my house before I can sleep... It is exhausting.

 

[amethist]

Hi and welcome to the forum.

Sleep is a problem for many sufferers for so many different reasons.

Take a look at the sleep section of the main PTSD area. There are many good threads in there, from others who may have found ways to get round some of the same issues you are having right now.

Take care.

Amethist

 

[Sleeplessly violent]

I appreciate the welcome and know I will be spending some time in the forms. It is hard to find peope that are able to relate to the level of stress this can cause. It is even harder to find people who can understand it. To the outside world I probably look psychotically paranoid but to me it feels very real and rational. I find it hard not to assume the worse in people I meet, or to sit in a restaurant without positioning myself in line of site of the entrance. The worst part is I don't know if I really have a problem it feels like everyone else is nuts for not seeing things like I do.

 

[IchBin]

Hello SV, I'm glad you're here. I too suffer from a whole slew of strange symptoms just like you. It's just so uncanny - I could absolutely, positively swear someone is trying to break in and kill me, and the feeling is awful. Checking and rechecking locks, analyzing little sounds at night, sleeping problems, nightmares - I feel you bud. PTSD symptoms at times do resemble psychosis, but I don't think you're psychotic. The fact that you're able to write about it here and analyze your own behavior makes this clear to me. I've had some luck writing in my journal about stuff like this, particularly naming it, being honest about the fact that it feels real to me, and brainstorming ways to work through it. Anyway, dunno if that helps at all.

I hope this forum helps you as much as it has helped me!

ib