Starting Therapy On The 25th

[JadedGhost13]

After being off meds and out of Therapy (T) for over 2 years I start again on the 25th. I had given up and thought I was doing good, my symptoms never went away, but I was doing decent enough that I thought I could go without them. Then things started getting bad again the last few months so I made the choice to get help again, not only for me, for those around me. I know it hurts those around me to see my pain and for me to withdraw from them and I was at that point again. I would just look at people when they would talk to me with a look like "Are you seriously speaking to me?" In a "How dare you" state of mind. That is NO WAY TO BE!

I have also been off work for 2 months due to a surgery, I return to work this coming up Monday, so this time off has been good for me. It has allowed me to get things all set up and going in the right direction.

Its hard to believe I am about to go back to work after being off this long, it seems that the time has flown by. But I guess that is because I spent so much of that time sleeping and so medicated for pain that it just kind of went by in a haze.

I am NOT ready to go back to work, maybe I have gotten a little lazy, but I am excited to go back because I sure miss my paycheck! I just feel like I have to do so many things to prepare for work. I work away from home, so I have to prepare gear I have not used in 2 months, get my house in order, make sue I get packages out that I have promised to send to family and friends and it seems a little much to do and the days just keep passing.

 

[discarded]

Maybe your surgery triggered things for you. It is great that you recognise you need to return to therapy and have put it in place to do so. You are also very caring to those around you. Take it easy going back to work, it will be good to be back but may add stress to your current state of mind. Make sure you leave plenty of recovery time each day.

Good luck with your return to work and therapy.

 

[JadedGhost13]

I was having issues before the surgery. It took me 3 months to get to my P. But the surgery did not help things I am sure. Well not so much the surgery, all the FREE time I had sitting around. I was on bed rest for 4 weeks. That did my mind NO GOOD!

 

[cherryblossom]

It took me 3 months to get to my P

Please explain your abbreviations so everyone can understand. What is "P"?

 

[safenow]

I was on bed rest for 4 weeks. That did my mind NO GOOD!

I can so relate. I've been on bed rest off and on again for over four years. It really sucked, but I finally learned how to live from my bed. I had to. Even when I got a bed sore, I figured out how to live laying my side most of the time. It sure wasn't easy.

I drew a lot of that time, which really helped. My art suffered, but I leaned a different style. I watched a lot of television, but I'm not really into a lot of what they show. Since I couldn't hold books, that wasn't even an option. I did get books on tape which helped. Once I got my computer set up, I found a different world. The world of chat rooms. Last year was the first year I've been out of that bedroom full time, and let me tell you, it really got me up. I made my doctor promise me he will never allow me to get that bad again. He told me Monday, he won't. I am so grateful for that.

 

[JadedGhost13]

Please explain your abbreviations so everyone can understand. What is "P"?

P= Psychiatrist
GP= General Practitioner (Family Doctor)
T= Therapist

I am sorry if I have confused you in any way.

 

[JadedGhost13]

I can so relate. I've been on bed rest off and on again for over four years. It really sucked, but I finally learned how to live from my bed. I had to.

Bless your heart! You know... your story makes me realize that when sometimes were feeling down, we need to realize that someone somewhere is having a worse time at it than we are. I have never been bed ridden like that, and I do not know how you sustained that. Whatever led you to that position, something devine sure got you through that because like you said, now you are up and out of that bed! Thats a blessing and a good thing to hear.

I hope that you continue to heal from your situation both physically and mentally. Just hearing that little bit makes me wanna hug you! The internet is a good outlet. I have been on the net since 1997 and I am an addict! LOL. But seriously I am. And for a long time, when I was in a rut and could not leave my house, not because I was bed ridden, when I was having a mental thing going on and just could not leave, the only contact I had with the outside world was the internet. I enjoyed it because it was impersonal! At that time, and still, talking using my mouth, actual words just does not happen. I am not a talker as in making noise in my mouth, but I will "talk" all day on the internet. My husband talks enough for us both so I just let him do the talking. And when he is talking to me I just sit there and he never even realizes that the conversation is no A-B... LOL Sometimes I ask him if he realizes that I have not responded to a single thing he has said. The answer is normally NO.