Strange Nightmare, Wondering What It Means.

[Fadeaway]

I just woke up from a particularly terrifying nightmare. High emotional intensity. It was of a CSA nature, but there was a very strange component to the nightmare.The nightmare was being narrated as if everything happening was on a documentary, even though the dream was thru my eyes.

There is a line from the narrator that is bugging me. The narrator said, "Is it ok for her to be aware of his erection, even if she is afraid of the monster under the bed?" I feel like that was significant, and I am supposed to understand what it means. I woke up quite distraught over that line and it kept me from being able to fall back asleep.

Do you guys think that it really has some kind of meaning that my brain is trying to tell me? Or was it just a weird nightmare that I should try and forget about?

 

[scout86]

Do you guys think that it really has some kind of meaning that my brain is trying to tell me?

Probably?

Who was the narrator? Did you recognize the voice? And, what do you think is the answer to the question? Was it ok for her to notice? (I would think that OF COURSE it's ok. But that's just me, and it's YOUR dream.) What does it mean if she notices? How did she know the monster under the bed had an erection? And, what connection is there between noticing something and being afraid? Isn't noticing stuff a good thing?

My own personal take on bad dreams is that, instead of dwelling on how scary the dream was, I make note of the fact that "at least it was just a dream". Wouldn't want a lot of that stuff running around loose in the "real world"!

 

[Powder]

I get a different feel from the dream.

I 'read' the question as a rhetorical one. The question contains the answer.

A female child who is young enough to be truly afraid of monsters under the bed is too young to know with certainty about erections, is the implication I sense. For me, this is the question of part of you that wants to remember and understand with compassion. A lot of my remembering has happened when there is an inner war over whether or not to allow this kind of realization to surface. Always, when new trauma memories surface, there is a turf war.

Obtaining greater cooperation internally has helped ease this process, which mostly feels like surender to the fact that I have a ton of buried memories that will inevitably surface, but asking that the process is not damaging or too much for me, giving me only a bit so that I can handle it quickly. Or maybe I'm just getting "used to it." Sometimes, no amount of practice makes processes a trauma any easier. There is a great deal of resistance to the emotional flooding.

Sometimes the part of you that wants you to understand has to do something to grab your own attention, and win the battle. You are working hard to keep it down, and it wants to come up, and "it" is part of you. It worked. Now that this part of you has your attention, usually the undue importance the part placed on its message will fade, but the message will remain clear in the emotional and sensory components, which are quite clear and shouldn't be over-analyzed. Just love and accept that whatever is in you is you.