Strange Star

[Hope4Now]

Today started 2 week residential program. DBT. Haven't started dbt yet but had very intense day of meetings with a social worker and a psychiatric nurse practitioner who I liked. I am wiped out, but I think it is going to be okay.

Yes, @sun seeker I am looking into this. It is more complicated than you would think as my mother is so difficult sometimes. But I have a two week vacation from her as of today! Yay!

 

[shimmerz]

"You're not my daughter with that hair."

And perhaps that was the message from you to her. My mother and I used to have arguments over my hair.

I cut my hair one weekend for her. Short. UggggHHHHH! Then what you ask? Did she like it? Nope. She died that weekend. I mean really. Who DOES that?

The I love you BUT is very telling. Remember that and how your haircut may just be what she needs to let her know you are allowed to be you and loved - and you ARE pretty! Inside and out.

 

[shimmerz]

Today started 2 week residential program.

Proud of you Hope. Thinking of you and Sun and I will have to light a fire and make Smores and toast you. Your babysitter part of you was doing overtime in allowing you to get this therapy. I know you worked hard to get there. Good things are coming. Congratulations!

 

[sun seeker]

Thinking of you and Sun and I will have to light a fire and make Smores and toast you.

Yes, and one day perhaps, the three of us can do that together and toast to recovery, and victory over darkness, and the sweetness of life.

It's not impossible. I'm seeing miracles come true, so why not this one?

 

[Hope4Now]

It's not impossible.

Nope, it's not. Here's to miracles and inexplicable happiness and peace.

 

[Tinyflame]

I was thinking @Hope4Now overcoming anything insurmountable is a miracle, isn't it? (Beyond all the 'smaller' miracles.)

:) :tup: :hug:

 

[Hope4Now]

Very intense two days. Even though we are not supposed to be talking about or focusing on trauma (just containment skills etc), my parts are wildly activated. But I had some really good realizations this afternoon while I was resting. Well not "good" but more clarity coming through about some parts.

Then a bit detailed this afternoon when I checked email and made some calls. My mother's best friend (my godmother) died. My mother does not understand why nobody will let her fly down, stay at a hotel, and go to the funeral. Bitter LOL.

She also said she was praying for me every day (ok I'll take whatever good stuff comes my way) BUT wondered if this program would make me "normal" by the 30th so I could take her out of the "prison" that she is tolerating "for your sake. Only for your sake, dear, am I here." She continues to harass me about taking her to a lake for a few days even though I have said no about a hundred times. Sigh.

Then I read an email from my boss informing me that if I did not return to my job by 9/1, I would not be guaranteed a return.

Ugh!

Oh happy...someone has a dog here...more later. I need some doggie love.

 

[Pietro]

The I love you BUT is very telling. Remember that and how your haircut may just be what she needs to let her know you are allowed to be you and loved - and you ARE pretty! Inside and out.

Love this whole post! :)

 

[Hope4Now]

Y'all must be sending me powerful energy. I was low down yesterday but had huge breakthroughs yesterday and today. Huge. Some painful some exciting. All healing. My cup is running over with gratitude for everything in my life THEN and NOW. Filled with love and compassion and patience and insight. I have a very long and arduous path to travel. I know that. I am willing and ready. My favorite Dougie MacLean song has whole new facets of meaning for me. It is one of my theme songs.

 

[Hope4Now]

 

[shimmerz]

Y'all must be sending me powerful energy.

We'all are my friend. We are standing right with you, circling you. You'se part of the tribe woman.

Oh, and have I mentioned yet that we have all been talking behind your back and we all think that your hair looks marvelous darling? You.absolutely.rock.

Seriously.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

Loved the song thank you so much.