Struggling with a Lack of Consideration on the Part of...Well, Everybody

[OliveJewel]

@whiteraven which part is BS?

 

[whiteraven]

Are you still feeling how you were with your first post? What would you say to someone else who expressed they were feeling that way?

Not suicidal--just not wanting to be around anymore. Not constantly crying, but yeah...mostly.

No idea what I would say. Probably nothing helpful.

 

[whiteraven]

@whiteraven which part is BS?

The primary theme--that this is temporary. Even though I make it clear that I don't mean that the depression will be gone tomorrow or in a week or in a year and that "temporary" means moment-to-moment, I know a lot of people don't see it that way, and it's really hard for me to hear over and over again from others that it's temporary--you won't feel depressed forever. I'd like to hear their definition of temporary--because I have been dealing with this for at least 50 years.

If I could hold onto *my* idea, I think it'd be easier, but I can't.

 

[Bamma]

it's really hard for me to hear over and over again from others that it's temporary--you won't feel depressed forever. I'd like to hear their definition of temporary--because I have been dealing with this for at least 50 years.

I've heard of this depression that is resistant to treatment. I am so unbelievably sorry for your pain. Have there been any moments of relief from it at all?

 

[whiteraven]

Oh, thanks, @Bamma.

Have there been any moments of relief from it at all?

Yeah...sure, there have been some. Like, I did better when I wasn't in therapy and I was as close to happy as I'll ever be when I was going out with this guy several years ago. And there are certainly *moments.* Though those are fewer and farther between these days.

 

[Bamma]

Oh, thanks, @Bamma.

Yeah...sure, there have been some. Like, I did better when I wasn't in therapy and I was as close to happy as I'll ever be when I was going out with this guy several years ago. And there are certainly *moments.* Though those are fewer and farther between these days.

To what do you attribute that those moments are fewer and farther between these days (if you don't mind my asking)?

 

[whiteraven]

To what do you attribute that those moments are fewer and farther between these days (if you don't mind my asking)?

I don't know. Except that I've had many, many recent experiences with people that I describe in my original post. And I'm older. And I am always in pain. Andandand. It's circular, you know?

 

[OliveJewel]

It's circular, you know

I wonder about the edges of the circle. What it includes and what it does not.

 

[Charbella]

You write about helping people find their passions in your book and you write about your cats here. Can you string some happiness together by doing your passion or with something the cats do?

I have two dogs and one is a major stinker. Yesterday the stinker yawned and my well behaved one stuck his entire snout in her mouth. I laughed so hard. I mean seriously talk about take his own life in his hands. If the opposite had happened I would’ve laughed but not as much, I’d expect the bag out from the stinker.

Being in pain all the time sucks!

Do you like to read? Just for fun? I like being transported to a different world, that can temporarily lift my depression sometimes. For me any creative pursuit has that ability, not that I want to do any of it when I’m on the edge.

 

[Applecore]

@whiteraven

I am struggling in ways I haven't for a very long time. And it all seems to be tied to the idea that nearly everyone I come in contact with is dismissive or grossly inconsiderate... Comments and support are welcome.

Ten days on since you posted this to us here, how do you feel about that now?

 

[whiteraven]

Thanks, @Applecore.

Ten days on since you posted this to us here, how do you feel about that now?

Pretty much the same, but I'm so exhausted and in physical pain that I'm kinda back to wishing I could just fall asleep and not wake up.