Struggling

[SunsetDawn83]

Hi everyone, I'm not gold at the moment, I'm in the precipice of self-imploding and one more little thing and I could snap. I've SH today just in order of some relief (I found none). I can't even do that right. Sometimes I wish I wasn't 'me'. I keep having bad dreams that stay with my throughout the day and I'm exhausted 24/7.

 

[LuckiLee]

Hi @SunsetDawn83 . I'm sorry you're feeling so horrible today. Some days are like that. Hang out here for a little while and you'll see you aren't alone and will find comfort in relating to people here. We are all more alike than not.

Sending support your way.

 

[Rose White]

you aren't alone

Even just reading your post helped me not feel so alone. I’m sorry you had a horrible day. How was today?

 

[SunsetDawn83]

It's hard to admit this and I've not told anyone about what I'm about to say. So here goes.

If things haven't changed in 2 years, I've been considering suicide, just after I've turned 40.

 

[GrayOwl]

I hope you find better ground. That is an unhappy place to be.

The human world has a lot of negatives. Maybe there is someone you know who can listen. or share?

I find relief sharing with my daughters cat. She has adopted me for the time being. She knew I needed a friend. I spend time outside away from computers and electronics and get fresh air. When I do that I feel better. As far as humans that listen, there are very few but I have a couple in my life. It is important that I hear what they say. I haven't done that in a long while. The time and place are important. Your post is a reminder to me that I need to do that soon.

I have to change things in my life right now. Too many negatives and that leads my mind to bad places. I can't let it get caught in those ruts cause I know where it leads and it's hard to get back. Lots of negatives in the news and world right now so I have to change my focus. Thanks for posting.
I hope you're okay.

I like your avatar. It's cheery.
Owl.