It has been a while since I posted here. After a lot of turbulence with finding and losing a couple jobs (not fired but that is another story), I have updated my depression meds, continued plugging along in therapy, and continued taking steps towards my next big goal (my dream job).
I work at a camping store and hit it off with a girl that works there too becuase we have both spent some time living in Alaska. we have been on a few dates and I was timid about certain things in my typical way, (we didn't kiss untill the 3rd or 4th date.) On out last date we did kiss and I talked to her about me being shy. I didn't talk about the why but I did say that I can be really shy about certain things and trusting people. She was very accepting which was great! And then she kissed me in a way that I have not been kissed before. I don't know exactly what was different, just something in the way she put her hand on the back of my head seemed to communicate a tenderness I have not felt before, the way she kissed me seemed to almost convey an acceptance that I haven't experienced before. I am just really happy that I am able to start moving towards a point where I can feel comfortable with another person like that.
I don't know if this is the right place to post this but I just really wanted to share my happiness and I don't have many folks I can talk to about this.
If you are someone struggling, I want you to know that things take time. What you want may seem a far way off but I believe you can get there! There is nothing wrong with waiting untill you are in a safe enough space to take some risks.
Everyone take care of yourself and have a healthy day!
I work at a camping store and hit it off with a girl that works there too becuase we have both spent some time living in Alaska. we have been on a few dates and I was timid about certain things in my typical way, (we didn't kiss untill the 3rd or 4th date.) On out last date we did kiss and I talked to her about me being shy. I didn't talk about the why but I did say that I can be really shy about certain things and trusting people. She was very accepting which was great! And then she kissed me in a way that I have not been kissed before. I don't know exactly what was different, just something in the way she put her hand on the back of my head seemed to communicate a tenderness I have not felt before, the way she kissed me seemed to almost convey an acceptance that I haven't experienced before. I am just really happy that I am able to start moving towards a point where I can feel comfortable with another person like that.
I don't know if this is the right place to post this but I just really wanted to share my happiness and I don't have many folks I can talk to about this.
If you are someone struggling, I want you to know that things take time. What you want may seem a far way off but I believe you can get there! There is nothing wrong with waiting untill you are in a safe enough space to take some risks.
Everyone take care of yourself and have a healthy day!
