DID Success with anger (did related)

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

I have DID and one of my parts has anger issues. My 5 year old son can also trigger this angry part. Tonight he was upset and was calling me bad and such. I could feel the angry part inside of me. I did not want her to yell at my son (again) so I started to dig my fingernails into my face. Not really the best strategy but it was working. Then, I had a sudden image of a basketball. I went down to the basement and that part got to bounce the basketball around for about 5 minutes. I was then able to go back upstairs and help my husband put the kids to bed. I am pretty proud of how that all worked out. Just thought I would share a positive moment for once.

 

[KwanYingirl]

Well done!!! It's a great feeling to identify the trigger and then cut it off at the pass!

 

[xena21]

I have DID and one of my parts has anger issues.

Hi. I am very interested in DID, because my therapist keeps talking to me about how I have this other voice talking to to me that I listen to and that I let tell me what to do. I understand what she is describing but I don't understand how the entire thing is actually involved. I mean I try to be in charge and that's the point right? Who is in charge? It's yourself... You have to maintain your own identity and then control your own actions. That's the way I see it. Is that correct?

I guess the issue I have is that I disconnect. During that time I am just out in space or unavailable. My mind is in a timeout. I am connected in some different way I suppose. I can't speak for what my normal self would do, but during that other time I may say or do something that I don't normally due, you know? It's very confusing to me. My therapists just tell me I have this other voice that I pay attention to...like an evil voice. Its a mess in my head. I don't know if this makes sense, and I don't know where this would make sense but I saw your thread about DID stuff and thought you might know. Thanks.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

@xena21 - I am still learning about DID myself and it's been a year since I was diagnosed (more or less). It's only been about 5 months since I really accepted that that describes what's happening with me.

I guess the issue I have is that I disconnect. During that time I am just out in space or unavailable. My mind is in a timeout. I am connected in some different way I suppose. I can't speak for what my normal self would do, but during that other time I may say or do something that I don't normally due, you know?

I get this experience when some alters are out. Sometimes I have no memory or where I was or what was said and other times I can hear my alter talking as if from a great distance and I don't have control over it. No of my alters would fall in the category of evil, but it's not beyond the realm of possibility.

Also, there are other reasons and ways that people hear voices. From some of your description it seems like this voice is another part of you that is talking and acting instead of you. But when you say you listen to it and it makes you do things, that would make me more worried- like if you felt like yourself but like you were being told to do something. I don't know if I am explaining that difference very clearly. I have a friend who has not been diagnosed with DID and I don't think she has it necessarily, but she has a "voice" in her head filled with negative thoughts. She sometimes feels like it's not here, but it seems to be just the negative part of her conscience magnified.

My best recommendation would be to ask your therapist about whether she/he thinks you have DID or what he/she thinks that voice is. Feel free to ask me any other questions and I can try to answer them.

 

[xena21]

but she has a "voice" in her head filled with negative thoughts. She sometimes feels like it's not here, but it seems to be just the negative part of her conscience magnified.

I understand that very well. I have told my therapists about this "voice", and they are trying to work with it. I have severe OCD so that interferes quite a bit. They are working around that and seeing if that adds into it. I don't know. I just know I could relate to your message more than I could to many others. Thanks.

 

[JEKBreatheandBelieve]

have severe OCD so that interferes quite a bit.

My friend has OCD, too.

I just know I could relate to your message more than I could to many others. Thanks.

I want to say I am glad that you could relate, but that makes it sound like I am happy that you can relate to such a struggle, but that's not what I mean. What I mean is something more like I am glad that it might help in some way. You're welcome.