Suicide Is Not An Option But An Unwelcome Invitation To Hell For The Survivors

[WendyA]

@monster1977 You are right! It did help, even if it just kept you alive for a time period. I was hospitalized in November for a suicide attempt and although I didn't get much out of the hospital in terms of healing, it gave me forced safety for a week. I can't even begin to tell you what to do, but if you feel you need to be hospitalized and are willing to go, you should go. I wish I could take your fear away. If I had that power, I guess this site would be no longer relevant. Just know I am thinking of you.

 

[ms spock]

I need to be hospitalized I think, but the last time the psychiatrist said that I had been hospitalized 7 times last year and it didn't help me. It did help me. I didn't die. Now I'm afraid to go.

I understand being afraid. That is hard.

I find the psychiatrist's comments odd really. I don't know what to say except that is a particularly untrue and unhelpful thing to say. It kept you alive that is a brilliant outcome as far as I am concerned.

 

[Abstract]

Now I'm afraid to go.

It's very hard when we are invalidated and not understood. You know the truth and we do too though. You can point out that it did work and why. You are important and your safety is important. I hope you find it in the to go in.

 

[24 daffodils]

What keeps me going even in the worst of times are two things:

- My kids. I just couldn't do that to them.

- I've now lived long enough that I've seen moods change over time. I've lived through times where I was absolutely certain I would always feel the way I felt. And then it changed and I wondered how I could have ever felt the way I did. "This too shall pass." Truer words were never spoken.

 

[The Albatross]

Wow I was really depressed just over two years ago. I've come a long way baby.

 

[Britt.f7]

My depression was horrible two years ago too. It seems to be heading back. Last night was my first suicidal thinking night in a long time. Enough to bring me to tears. I hang on knowing I wouldn't want my kids to find me and that, yes, the feeling does pass. Today I am doing a bit better then the night time. What would I be showing my boys if I gave up? It gets so hard to hold on though.

Thankfully they are adjusting my meds to help. Had to get rid of one that was working, because of the cost, and I am now trying another. So far it is not doing the job of the last one. This is not good. But I am trying. I'm not giving up.

 

[Xbreed]

This is going to sound cold and callus, and its meant to, I have nothing for those that think about/attempt/succeed in suicide, It is the single most selfish thing one can do to those who love and care for them. No matter how dark the sky, how rainy the day, how bleak the out look on life, Somewhere the Sun is shining, one just needs to open thier eyes!!!!

 

[Pencil]

Being genuinely, pathologically suicidal is as much a matter of choice or reason as diabetes is. I'm saying this as someone who is NOT suicidal. We have to be careful in our condemnation; it is on par with telling someone with ptsd to wake up to the fact that the trauma is in the past and to get over it.

 

[Xbreed]

Isnt that why we are all here, because of our Past, and should we not be trying to get over it and move on? at least that is my understanding, by no means do I mean to say its easy, but still!

 

[Hashi]

@Xbreed, have you ever been seriously suicidal?

 

[Xbreed]

@Hashi No I have not, as no matter how bad things got I have never thought about takeing my own life, as in my view its as I said SELFISH!

 

[Pencil]

My (sick) sister used to say / declare: 'There is NO such thing as depression!! It's a sad excuse for laziness!!' Then at one point she became seriously depressed and took anti-depressants.All we can say is 'there but for the Grace of God go I'. I think only people who have been suicidal are in a position to comment.

The funny thing is, people who really are suicidal uniformly believe that survivors will be better off without them. People who suicidal are not, so to speak, 'in their right minds'.