Super anxiety again

[BM2A]

Yet again ive gone from fine to disabled.

Ive been in a f*cking anxiety related agitated state for two days. Cannot keep still, feeling sick depleted, dizzy. Night time has been nightmares, waking with my whole body sweating, in a cycle all night.

Not sure why it has to be this extreme. Or whats causing it. And why these episodes happen. I have to stop work. I have to stop everything.

Im not sure if this is PTSD. Theres no trigger and its so random.

But im aware im checking for danger everywhere. Wierdly ive thrown out my dining chairs cause i been thinking there may be asbestos in them. For no apparent reason. So now no chairs. And no money to replace to them. But my family is safe from asbestos at least.

I still dont understand how it can go from fine to totally disabled for however long. Then fine again?

Its been a shock to my system. Recovery is f*cked up. I feel so unwell today. I dont even know why i posting this. I
guess in the absence of any help from professionals apart from them saying 'your doing well' , i ve noone to relate to :(

 

[Deleted member 37085]

So sorry @BM2A that you are feeling sick, dizzy and experiencing nightmares. Please know that you are not alone and I so understand you having to stop work, stop everything to deal with whatever this is.

When you say that you're checking for danger everywhere...I did this too...and I was dealing with hypervigilance which was connected to my PTSD trauma...and yes recovery is so very difficult...and I'm so glad you posted here. Again...you are NOT alone anymore.

 

[BM2A]

Thanks @JadesJewel. Its means a lot to me. Im feeling like im on another planet to everyone else

 

[Gadgie]

Quote.............”i ve noone to relate to :(”

You are not alone with feeling like that, there are many more folk in here, including myself, who have, and still do, feel like that.

They stopped my therapy yeas ago, saying that they could not help me any more? So the only real Help Ive had since then, has been from everyone in Here, and I’ve been really greatful for that, it’s got me through some rough times.

Don’t worry about you’re chairs, I’m fairly sure that they don’t put asbestos into them when they are made.

 

[Deleted member 44579]

Hi @BM2A... You're not on another planet... Your extremely stressed and panicked... Which is not nice...... And releases all kinds of stress in your body.

Im sorry you are having a hard time just now... Do you have a doctor or therapist you could talk to about this.... I think it would help you... Also maybe some medications...?

Are you feeling a bit better now?... Take care of yourself.... Try not to have to many stressful things around you.. If you can.....

 

[Deleted member 37085]

@BM2A...you are very welcome...and pm me anytime...or leave me a brief message in my trauma diary...if/when you ever need to talk.

And try and continue to reach out here in the forum and post about feeling like you're on another planet because most all of us here do understand and share these feelings as well...I go through this too...still, especially around the holidays.

And my understanding is that most everyone with PTSD feels this way at one time or another! Hang in there...keep posting...and learning and growing! Yay!

 

[BM2A]

Thanks @JadesJewel and @Gadgie and @Xena
Im still not well but functioning better some of the time. Its really scares me going into that state when ive been well for a while.

I dont want to be like that again and it seems like theres no break from it. But at least i havent acted out done anything destructive, just been upset and felt unwell thats all. I had a panic attack today but i calmed down now.

Thanks again guys its so good to be able to share some of this