Super embarrassing

[Freida]

It's just the things I have done wrong I'm worried to talk about.

Stop that. Right now. You don't yet know the difference between what you may have done wrong or what wrong things were done to you. And guess what? You are going to find out you didn't do anything wrong

The only wrong is what you were told to believe. The blame you were given for things you were taught. The things you did because of what had been done to you, that were never your fault in the first place.

You deserved better than this. Now you have a chance to fix the damage others did to you. Baby steps

 

[ShodokanJenn]

@Madwomeninabox I hear you. My faith (Christian) is supremely important to me. I've fallen into sin SO many times, both spontaneously and habitually. I believe I am forgiven - but forgiving myself feels impossible. I feel dirty, contaminated, dirty, broken, worthless... I'm in positions of spiritual leadership and I feel like encouraging those who look up to me are looking up to a lie. But, and this is a big but, I do love my God and I love others. I am interested in helping them, not hurting them. And if I'm totally honest, I've helped more than not.

I've been seeing my T for years, and I still can't get myself to talk about specific sexual problems I experience. But at least I can use generalities and get SOME feedback.

You don't need to be ashamed to talk with your T about anything you choose to discuss. She is there to support you, and I suspect that she knows we ALL fall short of our own expectations and moral obligations. She's not going to judge your religion based on something you perceive as contrary.

Best wishes to you on your healing journey!