The thing is Ive moved my child and myself to his home state and uprooted our lives to do so. I dont have anything to go back to my home state for, as I don't really have family and now my child is settled in school and making friends. But its an expensive place to live and one income can't do it. I'll figure that part out as I always have.
He decided to move out a few weeks before Christmas in an argument. What happened was, i was asking him what the plan was for christmas (shopping, how we were going to split gifts). He didn't want to give me any answers, but when it came to a family members graduation, which we werent invited to but i was supposed to somehow know about (he had an invite in an envelope he assumed i would take upon myself to read?? It's not my mail??) he planned to spend the whole day with them when I planned to shop for presents on this day. I was never told this day was the graduation. I got angry and said oh really, you can jump up for a graduation but when i ask you about figuring out xmas we can just F off? His excuse was that he hates xmas which i replied so do i but it isnt about us its about my child enjoying a good xmas.
He left. Didn't see us on xmas. We spent it in a new state totally alone. Which was fine anyway.
So we will text every day pretty much and he will come by for a few hours every other week or so. We have discussed him moving back in and the plan was the end of jan. His dad who he is staying with is moving to another state. I was told his dad was going to keep his apt for another month in case the move didnt go well. It turns out to be hes keeping the apt for a "few months" ...huh. I called BS because who keeps an apt for months and they dont live in the same state. Ive told him i came here for a relationship and a partner. I feel like they are planning to give him all this cushion and its been an issue where his dad just babies him. Anytime his nose runs practically its "son are you ok?? Oh god my son!!". My child had a biopsy and I didnt even get a text msg from my fam asking how it went. We obv come from very different backgrounds.
Im angry. Because he says he loves me and wants to be with me he just doesnt want to fight anymore. Hes the one who has pushed me in anger, shames me for what comes with my disorder and has thrown my things all around in a fit of anger. Hes normally pretty laid back and not violent or an angry person but take responsibility for your actions... i didnt make him do these things.
I can't handle the uncertainty. I can't be expected to be kept in the background not knowing how to plan my next steps while he's all comfy being lazy at his dads while I'm taking care of my kid by myself, taking care of the apt and not having a friend in this entire world to lean on. I'm really angry. Im hurt.
